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This is sexual harassment goon from the last thread. Just found the new thread and I saw a couple people in the thread asking for updates, so here goes:

The relationship was pretty slow, but I think that’s understandable as she doesn’t really push for anything and I wasn’t in a hurry. It was fun to just go places with her.

Things ended up changing a bit a couple days before Christmas when she invited me over to her place for the first time. For context, her place is about an hour out of the city in normal conditions, but this is winter and she lives up in the hills so she gets snow. 2 hours later, driving through creepy woods in the dark on a road that hadn’t been plowed recently, my GPS tells me to pull up to this fairly run down looking house with a boarded up window. I call her as this was not the house I envisioned her living in, but sure enough she bounces out the door and runs to my car.

We go in, she sits me down on her couch, and we have dinner and talk, mostly about her current project, how her week went, that sort of thing. In the middle of it there’s this awkward moment where she doesn’t respond to something I said and just sort of stares off for a moment. A couple more seconds and I ask her if she’s ok, she says “Yeah, but there’s a reason I invited you here today. You know I’ve been talking to a therapist and they said I should be more honest with you. Well, there are some things we need to talk about that I hope you don’t judge me too harshly for but I’ll understand if you do.”

She then stood up. “I think it’s probably easier if I show you. Follow me.” She’s basically on the verge of tears at this point and not looking at me and she shuffles down this unlit hallway to a closed door. Her hand lingers on the doorknob for a moment, and then opens it to a pitch black room. I follow her in and she turns on the light (suspense!).

Her room was, and I’m not making any of this up, covered from wall to wall in posters (wall scrolls, I believe, is the proper term) of anime. She had books and dvds piled up along her walls (as in nearly floor to ceiling) of different shows and plushes and other merchandise. I remember the first words out of my mouth were “Wait, seriously?” I think I sounded pretty mad at this point, because really? This is some deep dark secret? We had been going out for 5 months at this point and she was worried that I would hate her for this?
Anyway, she took that response the wrong way, “I know you hate the stuff, if you really can’t stand it I can stop and…” and then she trailed off.

Fun part is I don’t remember ever talking about anime or anything like that before? I dunno. Point is, I calmed her down, and my 31 year old girlfriend with emotional problems who makes six figures and runs a lab with 10+ people working under her is actually a giant weeaboo and was worried that I would break up with her for that for reasons.

Sorry for building up suspense to that, but I wanted you to ride the same exciting, anti-climactic roller coaster that I did. A couple more fun facts that came out of this: She didn’t meet her HR friend at college like they always tell people; she met her at an anime convention where they just happened to be cosplaying characters from the same show. Her dad is basically king weeaboo (I met her parents this spring) who takes yearly trips to Japan. She’s also really into a specific type of anime called yoai which involves dudes kissing (amongst other things), which for some reason I still find funny. She wants me to try going to a convention with her at some point, I told her maybe.

For an actual update, we’re still together and I’m basically living in her (our?) house. She's still going to therapy and has gotten a lot better about being honest and upfront about things, which is nice. She talked me into going back to school to try and finish up my degree (“finish” taking at a minimum of 2 years). So I guess I’m a kept man at this point? There isn’t really much else to say besides that.

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I had a comfort blanket as a child. I still use it to sleep. I'm 35.

It works really well too, if I'm stressed I can feel my heart rate drop just touching it. I've done without it sometimes before, like when having girlfriends, but if I'm sleeping alone why not use it...

Also, it's velvet and it feels great on my dick. 30 year old velvet would disintegrate if I ever washed it.

bradzilla posted:

My woods

H.H posted:

Murphy Brownback posted:

That one definitely belongs in the stdh.txt thread, at least the part about him spooking them away. Chances are he just angrily stared at them from the edge of the campfire all night wishing he could join in and then went back to his tent to cry about how his super secret spot (which was probably just off a main hiking trail if people decided to camp there) is ~ruined~ by the people who have the audacity to drink beer and have fun in the woods.

H.H posted:

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I totally have a crush on A.s.P., the mod of YLLS and I check out the what are you wearing thread just to see her

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Sweet God in heaven I love opiates. I'm 3 years clean from a heroin addiction, because one day I woke up sick and it dawned on me that the high is not worth the low. And the low will come. Every time.

But the problem is, I become a better person when on opiates. I'm considerate of others, I'm outgoing, I'm everything I've ever wanted to be. I can keep up the act when I'm clean, but it's not the same. When I'm high, that's who I am. When I'm not, that's who I'm trying to be.

Is it possible to develop an opiate induced personality disorder? I've tried therapy, and haven't been able to find a long term solution.

I'm able to afford my habit and still pay all my bills, but have no money for anything else.

H.H posted:

H.H posted:

I totally have a crush on A.s.P., the mod of YLLS and I check out the what are you wearing thread just to see her

Cliche Guevara posted:

To opiate guy:

Consider jenkum

HerStuddMuffin posted:

Considering the horror stories she's been telling in the online dating thread, this one is believable. Poor woman is a loving weirdo magnet.

Putty posted:

sexual harassment guy one day you are going to be doing the nasty in that room. out of the corner of your eye you are going to see a poster of Naruto give you the thumbs up

Putty posted:

sexual harassment guy one day you are going to be doing the nasty in that room. out of the corner of your eye you are going to see a poster of Naruto give you the thumbs up

Jastiger posted:

I sent in like 10 confessions, all true, and not one has been published wtf. Racism itt.

Return Of JimmyJars posted:

I got a fungus donger

Return Of JimmyJars posted:

I got a humongous donger

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Anxiety guy again.

I guess my main problem is that I have a lot of self-doubt and self-confidence issues. I've thought about pretty much everything you guys said and dismissed them because of various self-defeating reasons (I'm going to weird her/my friends out, no one cares enough etc). It's good to have confirmation that I'm being a big dumb baby and that I have the right ideas and just need to act on them. I invited that friend out for drinks later this week and as long as she isn't working she's up for it. Her fiance might come and I'll try to ask them for dating help but I might need a few drinks to work up the nerve. I've only known her for a couple months, we only started hanging out about a month ago (I checked my texts and first one's from July 1st). She did invite me to go with her and her fiance to Six Flags for her birthday but I declined because it was going to be hot (~100F) and I felt like a third wheel since I assumed he meant for it to be just the two of them.

The fact that I can ask her out to drinks and feel comfortable hanging out with her and other people really means a lot to me. Before I started going to therapy I was just on anti-depressants and while they helped they weren't fixing my broken social skills. Probably wouldn't have been as comfortable going out as I am now and definitely wouldn't be in the position I'm in right now without it. I've gotten a lot better and while I still have trouble with some things, they're less scary/troublesome and are easier for me to even consider doing. It's really helped a lot and I'm grateful that I'm doing it.

For you other people that suffer from depression and anxiety and other mental illnesses, please go to therapy. It's not a meme or joke, it really helps a lot and makes your life way better. If I didn't go to therapy or even to a psychologist then I'd have dropped out of college and had no friends and been a depressed mess. It's never too late, you're never too far gone. It's not easy but it's worth it. Push yourself and better yourself, you're worth it.

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I'm thinking I might be slightly schizophrenic or susceptible to Alzheimer's. Many times when I daydream or play out an interaction with another person in my head, I tend to get lost in the thought and lose control of my body. That is to say, I might start making facial expressions or move my arms or speak in response to things that happen in my head. I'll lose awareness of everything around me until I react physically, which sort of wakes me up. I've been able to control it in public but occasionally someone will catch me speaking to myself or making faces and look at me like I have three heads. I'm hoping I don't have to check myself into a psych ward down the line.

My other confession is I don't watch porn, and can only masturbate to pictures of people I know.

Alan Smithee posted:

shame you're a bottom

(i know this for gay I am)

Jastiger posted:

I sent in like 10 confessions, all true, and not one has been published wtf. Racism itt.

H.H posted:

If this is true, for anyone, please make sure you're sending your confessions to the correct address. I try to post everything I get.

Jastiger posted:

I just clicked the link in the OP and it opened the browser for me, copy paste. Hrmm. I sent the last one i think the day before yesterday.

KomodoWagon posted:

Thanks for the heads up that the next 10 "I AM A DIAPERFUR PEDO WITH A WEIRD DICK AND A SMELLY PUCKER LIVING WITH MY MOTHER WHOM I AM PLANNING TO RAPE AND KILL" confessions are all Jastiger's

Jastiger posted:

Also that wrestler chick Nia Jax is probably my biggest crush right now holy poo poo she's hot.