SlyFrog posted:

Thanks, I appreciate it. To be clear, I've seen four psychiatrists over a little less than the last ten years.

I am torn about agreeing to just say, "This is what it is going to be like, just manage it," because I want to be hopeful, and try to hope I can ultimately find contentedness and serenity, not just pain management. Believe me though, I have thought about it, because there are times where I almost think it might be easier to just surrender and say, "This is what I feel like, and is likely what I'm going to feel like, now just to manage it as best I can."

I did not take anything you said as downplaying my own efforts to find help, don't worry.

Nice piece of fish posted:

As a deteriorating anxiety ball, I'm honestly having the most trouble dealing with how I think people perceive me and the general cost of failure. I can't seem to let go of result anxiety as if there's anything I can realistically do (other than litigate competently) to affect the outcome of a case than what I'm already doing. There might be, but I don't have the training, the tutelage nor the resources to deliver a perfect performance. As a central personality trait, I constantly measure myself up to some platonic ideal of absolute perfection and naturally I always fall short, which I feel like I'm constantly waiting to be punished for. I know that's hosed up and unrealistic and that I can't do anything about it, but that doesn't stop me.

What I'm learning is that all this mental stress is out of my control much like a broken leg won't work no matter how hard I might try. So, my plan is to change the only thing I can change, which is my circumstances. I plan to find a new job doing something where I have actual stability and a more predictable metric of success, change my personal habits back towards more healthy things and try to regain some measure of personal satisfaction in my professional life and my personal life.

It sounds to me like you're already doing the needful things you have to to get better, and that your circumstances are changed and are changing for you either voluntarily or involuntarily. I've also been told that the deeper the pit has been dug, the longer it takes to climb out. To me, that says you're on the right trajectory towards whatever you need for your situation to improve and you're actively working towards improving it by making an effort in all sorts of directions. That means you're doing exactly what you should. Keep at trying, and remember to have patience with yourself because the road might be long.

And if it all goes to poo poo there's always drug dealing.

Hoshi posted:

Why would you go into drug dealing? It's just another oversaturated entry level market, and I think you already have the resources (isolated cabin) for a snitch disposal startup

Soothing Vapors posted:

in this context is warhammer a euphemism for butt stuff

Discendo Vox posted:

There is no other context, that's the plain meaning of the text

Hot Dog Day #91 posted:

I want him to put a space marine in my rear end.

SlyFrog posted:

Oh you sweet, summer child. It's called a Powerfist.

Hot Dog Day #91 posted:

Honestly I would have let slyfrog move in with me so he could teach me warhammer.

But then he liked Hillbilly Elegy.

JohnCompany posted:

Hey folks, look like I have a second round interview for an interesting in-house position coming up (not a typical corporate client but I'd not say more yet). For reference I'm a midlevel transactional associate at an NYC biglaw shop. Any tips on preparing for/what to expect in an interview for an in-house position, particularly one that's related to, but not directly in, my current practice area?

Vox Nihili posted:

I've got the opposite issue. Read what you want, but only quality tabletop gaming in this household.

mastershakeman posted:

I think we had a tabletop rpg argument in here a year ago and I am ready and willing to explain how you, yes you, play badly and how the system I like is correct and good and objectively better

for starters, any rpg released in the 2000s is trash and so is any homebrew based on it

Nice piece of fish posted:

I didn't need to go out even three years to prove you objectively wrong.

mastershakeman posted:

I think we had a tabletop rpg argument in here a year ago and I am ready and willing to explain how you, yes you, play badly and how the system I like is correct and good and objectively better

for starters, any rpg released in the 2000s is trash and so is any homebrew based on it

Toona the Cat posted:

My review company asked me to mail in my key until a new project comes online. At least I can get to work on my Netflix/Hulu/Amazon backlog.

Mr. Nice! posted:

hooray I'm not the only one unemployed.

Toona the Cat posted:

My review company asked me to mail in my key until a new project comes online. At least I can get to work on my Netflix/Hulu/Amazon backlog.

Vox Nihili posted:

Oh my god it was all real, wasn't it?

Look Sir Droids posted:

I really want Get Money to be real and replace Toona 3-4 yrs from now.

Look Sir Droids posted:

I really want Get Money to be real and replace Toona 3-4 yrs from now.

mastershakeman posted:

I think we had a tabletop rpg argument in here a year ago and I am ready and willing to explain how you, yes you, play badly and how the system I like is correct and good and objectively better

for starters, any rpg released in the 2000s is trash and so is any homebrew based on it

Vox Nihili posted:

Oh my god it was all real, wasn't it?

mastershakeman posted:

Quite honestly, psychosomatic. Uncomfortable getting too into it but it's a lot closer to you than not. But my friends have all commented theyre shocked she's able to maintain disability for what appears to be anxiety manifesting in physical symptoms. I'm not kidding when I say I wish my wife could get on this somehow - yours is through work not SSDI right?

mastershakeman posted:

Yeah you're in the exact same boat as my wife. Huge anxiety about how going back to full time work will physically kill her, then anxiety about not being able to afford our mortgage because I can't find a real job

mastershakeman posted:

You're welcome to come stay in my spare bedroom if you can put up with a toddler

yronic heroism posted:

Apocalypse World solved the riddle of how to design tabletop and all RPGs about being a law student must now be AW reskins and written in IRAC form.

Mr. Nice! posted:

I have no doubt GET MONEY is real, too. We're all real, and we're all real dumb.

I hate to say it because I think he's the worst of us all in here, but Throatwarbler is the smartest of the law students/recent grads if we go by job offers.

Vox Nihili posted:

Oh my god it was all real, wasn't it?

Throatwarbler posted:

Vox Nihili posted:

In 10 years GET MONEY will be here on the SomethingAwful VR forums (presented by Amazon Web Services) telling new hopefuls (outside the US, of course) about how he was totally on the fast track to partner until Trump outlawed the practice of law in 2025.

Most of us will be dead by that point, of course.

Throatwarbler posted:

My grades sucked(slightly above median), my work history had a lot of difficult to explain problems, I'm generally not a good interviewer(boy did I have some bad interviews) and I struck out completely in NY. Ultimately what saved me was that I knew going in my odds weren't good, and applied to every single market I could find, even really insular ones like CA, the PNW and SE, *and* came up with a reasonable story for why I wanted that market when I had no ties, and swallowed my pride and continued to cold-email people despite the first few efforts failing spectacularly - that TLS thread about networking really works, just be a little less goony than me and run stuff by career services before sending it out. Classmates with better stats than me struck out because they were too confident in getting a job in their preferred market and ignored other markets until it was too late.

Ultimately I was literally the only person from my class to end up in this market(a friend got an offer too, but had better stats and better offers) where very few alumni worked - Just out of curiosity I went through the websites of all the big local firms and even solo practitioners and there are likely less than 10 (probably less than 5) alumni working in this market in total.

I wasn't trolling when I said Career Services asked me to do a talk on the experience because none of the firms/offices in that market has ever come to OCI at my school and it just wasn't on anyone's radar. Even the recruiting person at the firm was really curious as to how I even found them and asked me a lot of questions about it, which I strongly suspect she didn't ask of the other summers who mostly had ties to the area and/or came from regional lower T14s or local schools with a strong presence in the market and a lot of alumni already at the firm.

TL;DR: Sometimes it works out if you try like hell but it's mostly still just dumb luck. Don't go to law school, probably.