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i was looking to move from the midwest to the northeast where my wife and i are originally from. i applied for dozens and dozens of jobs that I was very well qualified for, over qualified for, and a few moonshots. because my wife is a nurse and will find work wherever we land, we decided id do the job hunting first. 15 months later without any job offers, she took a job and i followed a couple months later. through a friend of a friend i got an interview and a job just a few weeks ahead of my drop dead move date. it was the most soulcrushing experience of my working life and i dont envy anyone going through it 
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May 8, 2019 16:45
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Nothing makes you second guess your value as a person like applying for a job. Like deep down you know that your value as a person is more than the labor you provide and all that jazz, but drat does that idea get put to the test. I've been applying out-of-state as well, and that's just loving awful. One of the interviews I was asked to justify why the company should hire me and bother to move me across state, and Captain Low Self Esteem could not even manage.
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May 8, 2019 17:28
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Sanguinary Novel posted:Nothing makes you second guess your value as a person like applying for a job. Like deep down you know that your value as a person is more than the labor you provide and all that jazz, but drat does that idea get put to the test. I've been applying out-of-state as well, and that's just loving awful. One of the interviews I was asked to justify why the company should hire me and bother to move me across state, and Captain Low Self Esteem could not even manage. If they flat said that, they're doing you a favor. Don't work for that company, they'll almost assuredly treat their workers like disposal garbage. I had an interview once where, when told I resigned because of rounds of layoffs, I was told the best people get retained after layoffs (implying I quit because I was worthless). I immediately sent an email removing myself from consideration and I hope he chokes on a chicken bone or something.
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May 8, 2019 18:06
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Trying atm to just disengage from politics and news. Everything I read is just fuckin depressing as poo poo. Thought Trump was funny at first and it rapidly got very not funny. Recently wondered why I torture myself with this poo poo so gonna try not to and I'd advise a lot of posters in this thread to do the same.
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May 8, 2019 18:16
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Mackers posted:Trying atm to just disengage from politics and news. Everything I read is just fuckin depressing as poo poo. The only power I have left in my life is being informed and torturing myself. I will not give that up
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May 8, 2019 18:21
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Mordor She Wrote posted:The only power I have left in my life is being informed and torturing myself. I will not give that up I reserve the right to go back on everything. That said, poke me when the revolution starts. Til then IDGAF.
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May 8, 2019 18:34
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Mordor She Wrote posted:The only power I have left in my life is being informed and torturing myself. I will not give that up Hit WTFJHT.com in the afternoon and stay out of the TREUMP thread the rest of the day, after a month or so it does wonders
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May 8, 2019 18:51
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Mackers posted:Thought Trump was funny at first and it rapidly got very not funny. Mackers posted:That said, poke me when the revolution starts. Til then IDGAF. I'm with you
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May 8, 2019 19:00
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I have to travel for work tonight and I loving hate flying and traveling so much I could cry, which is what I have done several times this week since I'm so lovely at coping. I like my job a lot (as jobs go), and I get to work from home 95% of the time so it's great, but every time I travel it's like I lose the entire week before/week after to an ongoing panic attack. When you consider that I do it once a month, I end up spending most of my time in a nail-biting state of anxiety. It doesn't help that the last time I traveled, I caught the stomach flu from one of my coworkers and ended up passing out on the floor of an AirBnB bathroom after voiding every last thing in my body. I had to stay two extra days that I spent shaking and delirious and now that fun memory is hanging over my head as I get ready to go back tonight. Honestly, if it weren't for the fact that two of my coworkers are getting married this weekend and I'm going, I'd say gently caress it and cancel and deal with whatever fallout comes. That's how much I hate traveling. There isn't really a point to me posting this, and I know I'm a huge baby for complaining, it's just that I've felt terrible for days and you guys seem like an understanding bunch. Sorry to break up the Trumpocalypse party.
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May 8, 2019 19:43
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having to fly to france for work next month sent me into a mini mental meltdown this past weekend. I know the feeling and it is awful. It brought on some terrible thoughts and now I get to go back to the doctors I too like my job but I dont know if I could handle all that traveling
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May 8, 2019 20:16
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Nae! posted:I have to travel for work tonight and I loving hate flying and traveling so much I could cry, which is what I have done several times this week since I'm so lovely at coping. I like my job a lot (as jobs go), and I get to work from home 95% of the time so it's great, but every time I travel it's like I lose the entire week before/week after to an ongoing panic attack. When you consider that I do it once a month, I end up spending most of my time in a nail-biting state of anxiety. know the feeling. pretty sure I spend more time wrecking myself with anxiety than I do failing at socialising. In my teens I didn;'t give a flying gently caress. what changed? who knows
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May 8, 2019 20:21
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Mackers posted:know the feeling. pretty sure I spend more time wrecking myself with anxiety than I do failing at socialising. poo poo, 5 years ago i flew to china with nothing but a passport and a promise someone would pick me up. now im a goddamn mess
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May 8, 2019 20:28
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Mackers posted:know the feeling. pretty sure I spend more time wrecking myself with anxiety than I do failing at socialising. yeah i also didn't give a gently caress during my teens. experiencing every single air travel nightmare short of crashing is what got me, including: - everyone sitting on runway for four hours because they overfuelled the plane - everyone sitting on the runaway for two hours after landing because of inclement weather - being redirected to a different city because we ran out of fuel circling the airport - being stranded in a layover because the second leg of a flight was canceled - having my flight cancelled because it was over 119 degrees, the temperature at which planes burn - having my flight cancelled because a lunatic took hostages in the local control tower and grounded all of the planes - flying with ear infections - flying brutally hung over - flying with the stomach flu - flying when the person in front of me threw up on the floor and it slowly washed back to me over the period of four hours - and last but not least, flying when the person next to me will not shut the gently caress up
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May 8, 2019 20:36
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Nae! posted:There isn't really a point to me posting this, and I know I'm a huge baby for complaining, it's just that I've felt terrible for days and you guys seem like an understanding bunch.  I wish there was a magic button I could hit to cheer you guys up.  Maybe this one? 
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May 8, 2019 21:09
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Mackers posted:Trying atm to just disengage from politics and news. Everything I read is just fuckin depressing as poo poo.  edit: except he interferes all the drat time lmao
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May 8, 2019 22:10
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it's not really fair to say that i have a problem with 'chewing my lip' because what i really do is eat my own face from the inside out and then feast on the partially healed wounds while sucking on the blood. it's incredibly gross and painful, i've been doing it since my childhood and i've never been able to stop. today my gf bought me a 10 dollar mouth guard and it's going to fix the problem. lol.
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May 8, 2019 23:01
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Nae! posted:- having my flight cancelled because it was over 119 degrees, the temperature at which planes burn *surreptitiously opens borked.txt* I'm stressed with work and life and romance and money, and my blood pressure is a mess because of it, so I've started BP meds now. 
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May 9, 2019 00:38
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angerbeet posted:*surreptitiously opens borked.txt* I mean, hey! job well done on that
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May 9, 2019 02:07
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repeatedly getting mad online prolly isnt good for me
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May 9, 2019 06:14
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getting mad on line is almost my default activity
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May 9, 2019 06:16
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animist posted:repeatedly getting mad online prolly isnt good for me meltdown May continues Ive decided to go on hiatus from the thread for a while because its gotten super gross in there and day crew cant take the agonizing pace at which the current wheels grind. just wtfjht and this thread for the foreseeable future I think.
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May 9, 2019 06:22
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Chokes McGee posted:meltdown May continues Thanks for your support the other day, and good internet travels friend
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May 9, 2019 06:32
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8 months without self injury
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May 9, 2019 07:36
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May 9, 2019 09:14
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yay good stories! those are good to share here too  Sanguinary Novel posted:Thanks for your support the other day, and good internet travels friend 
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May 9, 2019 15:34
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Addamere posted:8 months without self injury congrats!
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May 9, 2019 17:45
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Addamere posted:8 months without self injury Congrats you should be proud of yourself.
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May 9, 2019 17:48
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Addamere posted:8 months without self injury good loving poo poo dude
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May 9, 2019 18:47
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Addamere posted:8 months without self injury well done comrade 
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May 9, 2019 19:04
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Addamere posted:8 months without self injury kudos!!!
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May 9, 2019 19:11
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Addamere posted:8 months without self injury Hell yes, that's the good stuff
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May 10, 2019 00:16
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wayyyy earlier in this thread I talked about severe health and death anxiety and now I'm medicated on escitalopram and going to therapy, the meds have helped an extreme amount in general, I think I was also depressed too because some of the positive effects of the meds have been related to mood and emotional depth, which I was not expecting. The therapy isn't covered by my insurance, which sucks, but if you haven't made that call to your doc yet goons, DO IT. I resisted asking for help for the better part of a decade and a half and I wish I would have done it way sooner. I just went up on my dose a few weeks ago from 10mg to 20mg and unfortunately I am struggling with exhaustion due to disturbed sleep Bullfrog has issued a correction as of 19:22 on May 10, 2019 |
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May 10, 2019 19:20
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what kind of sleep disturbances? zoloft gave me unbelievably horrible night terrors but many years later i tried prozac and it didn't give me any nightmares.
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May 10, 2019 20:01
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Frog Act posted:what kind of sleep disturbances? zoloft gave me unbelievably horrible night terrors but many years later i tried prozac and it didn't give me any nightmares. Basically just waking up extremely early and not being able to get back to sleep. Sometimes I will wake up in a panic believing that I've accidentally got an object stuck in my throat and if I swallow I will choke to death, but these happened before I was medicated too.
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May 10, 2019 20:05
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Welp I couldn't find an internship over the summer but a professor said he could get me some work helping with PhD research. Turns out he meant unpaid volunteer work lol
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May 10, 2019 20:18
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Bullfrog posted:wayyyy earlier in this thread I talked about severe health and death anxiety and now I'm medicated on escitalopram and going to therapy, the meds have helped an extreme amount in general, I think I was also depressed too because some of the positive effects of the meds have been related to mood and emotional depth, which I was not expecting. Awesome! Glad to see you're feeling better and taking care of yourself. Question: when do you take your SSRI? They can be activating/energizing and cause problems with sleep, so if you're taking it at night, try switching it to the morning instead.
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May 10, 2019 20:57
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Reminder: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OG6HZMMDEYA
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May 10, 2019 21:33
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Bullfrog posted:Basically just waking up extremely early and not being able to get back to sleep. Sometimes I will wake up in a panic believing that I've accidentally got an object stuck in my throat and if I swallow I will choke to death, but these happened before I was medicated too. Do you snore? That sounds sort of sleep apnea-ish.
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May 10, 2019 22:34
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This week has not been great for me. No energy or motivation. Only managed to leave home like once and it was a struggle the entire time and I did not even do the thing I left home to do. But at least I'm showering every day and all I guess. 
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May 10, 2019 22:36
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Addamere posted:This week has not been great for me. No energy or motivation. Only managed to leave home like once and it was a struggle the entire time and I did not even do the thing I left home to do. my pro strat to get myself to leave home is to just not buy very much food when i go to the store
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