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happy post: after a shitload of exposure therapy and mindfulness stuff i'm now pretty much over my OCD / anxiety. it's still there, just now when i hear the voice in my head say "you're a terrible person and you'll die alone and forgotten" i'm like "lmao maybe" and go on with my day
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Jul 10, 2019 23:17
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animist posted:happy post: after a shitload of exposure therapy and mindfulness stuff i'm now pretty much over my OCD / anxiety. it's still there, just now when i hear the voice in my head say "you're a terrible person and you'll die alone and forgotten" i'm like "lmao maybe" and go on with my day that owns, congrats
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Jul 11, 2019 00:26
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animist posted:happy post: after a shitload of exposure therapy and mindfulness stuff i'm now pretty much over my OCD / anxiety. it's still there, just now when i hear the voice in my head say "you're a terrible person and you'll die alone and forgotten" i'm like "lmao maybe" and go on with my day gently caress yeah friend, showing that maladaptive thinking who is boss and where to shove it. Edit: dammit I can't say "friend" now without thinking of that dipshit Reddit racist cesspit.
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Jul 11, 2019 01:10
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Eat This Glob posted:is abilify the first/only med you've taken for bipolar ii? I've found people with bipolar/bipolar II ARE less fun after they've been treated and are different because they aren't (hopefully) following their worst impulses and buying rounds for everyone at the bar or riding those manic highs have a grand old time. if you've been treated with meds before and your mood has altered a lot on abilify I'd let your pcp know especially if it is a new observation from friends Yeah, it's the only med I've taken for bipolar. My sense of humor is still there, but the creative aspect of humor seems like it's gone away completely. FactsAreUseless posted:How often did you spend time with friends? How much of the time were you unable to? How much do they know about your mental illness? If your friends only ever saw you on the up side of your cycle they may perceive you as very different because you are, but without realizing that your life is better and more stable now. That's not to speak to the efficacy of the medication, I haven't taken it and I'm not bipolar, I'm just cautioning against judging yourself based entirely on the perceptions of others if it doesn't match up to what you feel now. My friends are all aware of my bipolar and know what I was like before and after the meds. They agree that I'm way more refined now, but I can't seem to keep a conversation going for the life of me. I'm extremely reactive instead of proactive when it comes to conversation now and I have absolutely no inclination to talk about random things anymore. Like, small talk is completely dead to me. I just feel like I have nothing to contribute to conversations and it's maddening.  I have a feeling that my withdrawn nature is also related to and heightened by my PTSD but I'm not entirely sure. In September my girlfriend of 7 years ghosted me out of nowhere and I've been dealing with the emotional fallout since. Mental health stuff is a huge pain in the rear end 
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Jul 11, 2019 01:11
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Sanguinary Novel posted:This may sound odd, but do you have enough money for an eye exam? Or have access to a free eye exam like a school or a public clinic? The reason is that I had trouble a few years ago with really painful headaches located in the back of my skull, and chalked it up to my glasses prescription being out of date. During the exam they dilated my eyes and found I had papilledema, which caused by increased pressure causing your optical nerves to swell and push inward. The doc said that I either had a brain tumor, or a condition that causes me to produce way too much spinal fluid, and I was fast-tracked into an MRI during a time which I had no insurance whatsoever! Its not a perfect measure, but it's something a little more accessible than a neurologist, who's just going to pass you on to an ophthalmologist anyways.  I never considered this. I will try looking into getting a free eye exam in the near future. Thanks!
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Jul 11, 2019 01:13
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if a mod/admin is reading this: can i get a two week probe? i've been seeing a new psychiatrist, have been on new medicine for the past few months (and it seems to be helping), have found a therapist, etc. overall, things have been turning around for me. i'm on the ascent. a break from the forums, if only to have more time to focus on other stuff, seems like it would be helpful right now. i can probably just log off myself, but a 2 week or so probation to reinforce it would be cool as well. thanks
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Jul 11, 2019 04:33
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Finicums Wake posted:if a mod/admin is reading this: can i get a two week probe? i mean fau reads this thread on the reg and can probably oblige but a probe isn’t gonna keep you from being able to read posts, which I think is the big problem. I personally don’t want to see you self ban for a few weeks so maybe grab a browser extension to block sa for a while if you need intervention. or just throw your phone in the ocean or something I’m sure it’ll be fine
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Jul 11, 2019 05:25
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Chokes McGee posted:i mean fau reads this thread on the reg and can probably oblige but a probe isn’t gonna keep you from being able to read posts, which I think is the big problem. I personally don’t want to see you self ban for a few weeks so maybe grab a browser extension to block sa for a while if you need intervention. i like cspam not, primarily, because it helps me learn about politics, but because its one of the ways i get to interact with people, even if in a mediated fashion. i already read the news + my fave blogs daily to catch up on what's happening. i can still do that to scratch the politics itch while probated. plus, i won't have cspam as an activity to sink time into. so even just the lack of posting ability would help me, imo. a specific example: most weeknights i alternate between reading a book and checking/posting on the forums until i get tired and go to bed. but i'd rather: read, go for a jog, get ready for bed, then fall asleep reading. two things, primarily, have prevented me from forming a weeknight jogging habit. 1) i like to jog to music; back when i was in the habit of jogging i'd always listen to music, and that helped. right now my phone is too old to even download spotify. i just checked w/ my company and they said i can come in for an upgrade (idk if it's free or cheap but whatever). so that'll be fixed within a day or two. 2) when i get tired from reading i just default to the forums. then, after i start to read the forums when it's late, i'll sometimes pick up a tallboy or two from the 7-11. even if i don't have a d drink, i just kind of laze around reading and posting. i doubt i'd get on in the first place if i couldn't post w/ the posting pals; so, a probation might help break this habit. i don't want to self-ban because it costs money to re-reg and stuff. and i still like cspam and the forums. i'd just like to form new habits where i use them less, or in a more purposeful manner or whatever. i know this posts has been about minutiae w/in my daily schedule, so i'm sure it's boring. but 1) i'm trying to focus on solving small, concrete problems, such as not exercising enough, rather than dreading large, abstract problems; and 2) even just not being able to post will probably help me form better habits. i said i was on the ascent, after all. hope this makes sense. i worry a lot about whether i'm understood. i'm sure my writing doesn't help lol (USER WAS PUT ON PROBATION FOR THIS POST)
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Jul 11, 2019 06:22
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nah it all makes sense. lemme see if I can queue something up, someone will have to approve it so it might take a bit. enjoy your vacation!
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Jul 11, 2019 06:28
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to the best of my recollection, I've understood every Finicums Wake post I've ever read, because they are understandable and legible and fine i know this because the av is one of the avs i look out for, scorched into my brain, probably as a pavlovian response to getting emptyquoted a few times just sayin yr good & fine
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Jul 11, 2019 07:01
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Randomly stayed up 30 hours straight yesterday without the influence of stimulants or anything else to explain it, had really weird, vivid dreams about trying to stay asleep once I did fall asleep, then woke up at 7 pm and within 3 hours had myself a shaking, sobbing fit about nothing in particular wherein I felt the urge to self-harm for the first time in several months. Having myself a normal one over here. 
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Jul 11, 2019 09:11
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Addamere posted:Randomly stayed up 30 hours straight yesterday without the influence of stimulants or anything else to explain it, had really weird, vivid dreams about trying to stay asleep once I did fall asleep, then woke up at 7 pm and within 3 hours had myself a shaking, sobbing fit about nothing in particular wherein I felt the urge to self-harm for the first time in several months. Yeah sounds like my dreams on lexapro.
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Jul 11, 2019 11:56
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redsniper posted:Yeah sounds like my dreams on lexapro. Yeah, poo poo always got wild when I changed my SSRIs. Great inspiration for writing, not so much for waking up feeling like having normal brains.
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Jul 11, 2019 16:14
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ffs everyone take either krill oil or algae oil if you aren’t already I’m a vegetarian, taking algae dha a couple of days has basically rebooted my goddamn brain
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Jul 11, 2019 21:21
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Chokes McGee posted:ffs everyone take either krill oil or algae oil if you aren’t already On what basis? Recommending people take random supplements for no regard their situation isn't good, actually.
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Jul 12, 2019 02:51
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krill algae mind smooth
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Jul 12, 2019 03:05
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yeah what's that stuff do. I'm doin omega oil poo poo because turns out trying to drink to death for years is bad for your heart
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Jul 12, 2019 03:58
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Consummate Professional posted:I'm doin omega oil poo poo because turns out trying to drink to death for years is bad for your heart Guess I better get a head start on the omega oil
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Jul 12, 2019 04:02
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I AM NOT A DOCTOR but my heart health is way bad, especially with my family history. brain docs are good but so are physical ones!
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Jul 12, 2019 04:04
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Chokes McGee posted:ffs everyone take either krill oil or algae oil if you aren’t already i am not sure this works as general advice, but excellent for you! ideally get tested for nutritional deficiencies, there may be more to know about what is going on there
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Jul 12, 2019 11:29
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I got good enough news about some allergy issues. It appears that it's just a whole lot of food intollerences, gerd, other GI issues, and maybe asthma. The GI stuff is rough of course, I don't have any info for what to do next. BUT I'm probably not going to die from anaphylaxis so, yeah. Taking the wins as I get them.
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Jul 12, 2019 15:38
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Jon Joe posted:On what basis? Recommending people take random supplements for no regard their situation isn't good, actually. Omega-3 is a common supplement that usually comes from fish oil, which gets processed in DHA, etc. that gets used by your brain meats. As I'm vegetarian, I have to get it through other means besides fish. Flaxseed oil is traditional, but you have to take so much it's a massive pill. Algae based omega-3 is found in your local Target vitamin section, because it's on the level of a basic multivitamin, B12 supplement, etc. Omega-3 is highly recommended by pretty much every doctor as a supplement and is harmless if you don't need it but makes a huge difference if you're lacking. (No, I don't have a citation, this isn't D&D) C'mon y'all, I'm not going to recommend bizarre poo poo out of nowhere. It's even in the OP.
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Jul 12, 2019 16:21
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my most important daily supplement claims it is 70% THC but I’m skeptical of black market cartridges so it’s probably less 
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Jul 12, 2019 16:29
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just finished first nami assignment and holy butt it was a lot harder walking in there than I expected eventually warmed up and the session seemed to go really well, people were genuinely curious with questions. Still, putting one foot in front of the other once I was in the secure ward was... woof.
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Jul 12, 2019 21:36
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Chokes McGee posted:just finished first nami assignment and holy butt it was a lot harder walking in there than I expected  u did good kid as for me lmao im wishing for death because im having a bad dysphoria day of wishing i looked different. i was all happy and dolled up but then i saw a reflection and hated what i saw and just shut down and went home and now im just mostly crying and posting 
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Jul 12, 2019 21:56
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Zyla posted:
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Jul 12, 2019 22:27
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instagram has some positive trans meme hashtags, one today even posted a "you pass better than you think" one i'm afraid dysphoria will kick into overgear once i start transitioning and i'll be too eager for the process to finish while i'm inbetween. right now i still look like a regular guy, but sure dont want to and this morning i felt all manly and was worried but a few hours later, maybe it was the daily E pill kicking in, i felt like trying on some short shorts and bought my first pair of heels, they're real cute and i was taking pics in the changing room mirror got any sevens has issued a correction as of 22:41 on Jul 12, 2019 |
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Jul 12, 2019 22:37
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Anyone have any experience with lexapro? doc just put me on it (ill take my first pill this evening), still kinda feel like I want to push for a greencard cause I know weed helps with my anxiety but i don't have the bravery to be pushy about it
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Jul 12, 2019 22:55
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Venom Snake posted:Anyone have any experience with lexapro? doc just put me on it (ill take my first pill this evening), still kinda feel like I want to push for a greencard cause I know weed helps with my anxiety but i don't have the bravery to be pushy about it Been on it for years, works for me. Better results than prozac, especially for anxiety (again, just speaking in my experience).
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Jul 12, 2019 23:40
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Venom Snake posted:Anyone have any experience with lexapro? doc just put me on it (ill take my first pill this evening), still kinda feel like I want to push for a greencard cause I know weed helps with my anxiety but i don't have the bravery to be pushy about it I'm on that (10 mg) and wellbutrin (150 mg). works well for me with no noticeable side effects. If you want to know specifics or whatever ask away or throw me a pm
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Jul 13, 2019 00:58
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Venom Snake posted:Anyone have any experience with lexapro? doc just put me on it (ill take my first pill this evening), still kinda feel like I want to push for a greencard cause I know weed helps with my anxiety but i don't have the bravery to be pushy about it Lexapro worked pretty well for me for about a month or two before my bipolar (which I didn't know I had at the time) spiked. That and sertraline are the only two SSRIs that have worked for me. As always, everyone is maddeningly different with meds 
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Jul 13, 2019 02:08
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Chokes McGee posted:
yeah, this too. the first time i sought treatment for broke brains I was put on prozac. the cure was about 300% worse than the symptoms. lexapro works well for me. i wish you luck
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Jul 13, 2019 02:20
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Lexapro got me out of a hole with depression. Lexapro plus buspar was like MAGIC for reducing anxiety. It makes me need a ton of sleep to feel rested and I get mild brain zaps when I go up or down in dose. Basically Lexapro greatly improved my life but came with some annoyances.
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Jul 13, 2019 02:28
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Okay holy poo poo I don't know if it's because I'm going through withdrawal side effects or if the drugs actually worked on reducing my very odd, incredibly specific phobias. It's like my anxiety shot up the goddamn roof and I'm genuinely torn between "it was the drugs, they were doing their jobs" and "antidepressant discontinuation syndrome heightens up anxiety like loving mad." I felt like a million bucks during the tapering period.
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Jul 13, 2019 03:35
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rear end posted:Okay holy poo poo I don't know if it's because I'm going through withdrawal side effects or if the drugs actually worked on reducing my very odd, incredibly specific phobias. It's like my anxiety shot up the goddamn roof and I'm genuinely torn between "it was the drugs, they were doing their jobs" and "antidepressant discontinuation syndrome heightens up anxiety like loving mad." I felt like a million bucks during the tapering period. Without knowing why you switched things up, it's probably a combination. SSRI discontinuation after being on it a long while is a wild fukkin ride even with a taper
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Jul 13, 2019 03:53
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Chokes McGee posted:Without knowing why you switched things up, it's probably a combination. SSRI discontinuation after being on it a long while is a wild fukkin ride even with a taper I was on Lexapro and Paxil for a while and I don't know if I'm viewing things with rose-tinted glasses right now because I'm going through loving hell but I think they might have taken the edge off with said specific phobias. Or maybe I got better at identifying them. Then I was put on the Adolf Hitler of ADs, Effexor, for a week, until I tapered it off and ultimately threw it in the garbage and now I take gently caress all, because I had my cosmic brain revelation re: OCD and I actually felt like I was in control of my poo poo (during the tapering-off period) when I realized when intrusive and obsessive thoughts were happening. I've always had a thing with vibrating, loud metal noises. There's a clunk in my car's front suspension that I always drowned out with music that I brushed off by saying "haha classic chrysler build quality" and now it shoots my heartbeat through the roof for some goddamn reason, and I don't know if it was the meds doing their work or my brain going through blender mode.
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Jul 13, 2019 04:03
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Venom Snake posted:Anyone have any experience with lexapro? doc just put me on it (ill take my first pill this evening), still kinda feel like I want to push for a greencard cause I know weed helps with my anxiety but i don't have the bravery to be pushy about it Yeah I’m on 10mg daily, for me it’s helped tremendously for my depression and to a lesser extent with anxiety - been on it for a few months now with no major side effects. The first few nights I had horrible insomnia but now I just have my normal insomnia lol
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Jul 13, 2019 04:38
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I'm moving tomorrow morning at like 4am and I'm flying with my cat. I'm so worried about taking her on the plane and if she'll be ok that I can't sleep.
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Jul 13, 2019 04:42
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rear end posted:I was on Lexapro and Paxil for a while and I don't know if I'm viewing things with rose-tinted glasses right now because I'm going through loving hell but I think they might have taken the edge off with said specific phobias. Or maybe I got better at identifying them. Then I was put on the Adolf Hitler of ADs, Effexor, for a week, until I tapered it off and ultimately threw it in the garbage and now I take gently caress all, because I had my cosmic brain revelation re: OCD and I actually felt like I was in control of my poo poo (during the tapering-off period) when I realized when intrusive and obsessive thoughts were happening. Maybe you shouldn't stop taking SSRIs without psychiatrist supervision?
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Jul 13, 2019 04:47
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redsniper posted:Maybe you shouldn't stop taking SSRIs without psychiatrist supervision? Maybe you shouldn't assume I didn't talk to my psychiatrist about tapering it off?
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Jul 13, 2019 04:48
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