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Trip report: chest tight, stomach in knots, going outside sucks. Got hit with waves of anxiety out of nowhere all of a sudden, on the way back from what I'd planned to do. Can't point to anything that would trigger it, but it felt awful and I was super glad and relieved almost the instant I stepped back in my apartment. I can't imagine I've spontaneously developed agoraphobia or social anxiety, and it's nowhere near hot enough outside for me to have been stricken physically ill. It has to be some kind of subconscious thing secondary to being out among people again but I'm drawing a blank on what it could be. Anyway I'm back inside now and safe under my weighted blanket. 
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Jul 21, 2019 18:17
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Addamere posted:Trip report: chest tight, stomach in knots, going outside sucks. I used to get random bouts of anxiety for no apparent reason so I think that it's just something that can happen once your brain becomes sufficiently dysfunctional.
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Jul 21, 2019 18:23
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turn off the TV posted:I used to get random bouts of anxiety for no apparent reason so I think that it's just something that can happen once your brain becomes sufficiently dysfunctional. This does not spark joy.
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Jul 21, 2019 18:28
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Addamere posted:Trip report: chest tight, stomach in knots, going outside sucks. It's amazing and laudable that you made it out at all. Small steps. 
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Jul 21, 2019 18:51
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e: whoops missed a few posts
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Jul 21, 2019 18:53
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im actually cleaning my entire apartment for the first time in probably two years and im getting more anxious the more clean it is, the sure sign of a well functioning brain
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Jul 21, 2019 19:14
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turn off the TV posted:im actually cleaning my entire apartment for the first time in probably two years and im getting more anxious the more clean it is, the sure sign of a well functioning brain I was trying to fix my sleep schedule the other day and looking for things to do to keep myself awake and I did not have the cognitive overhead to play a video game or post on the forums or anything and I knew if I just sat and watched something I'd fall asleep so I spontaneously got up and scrubbed my bathroom from floor to ceiling for the first time since I've been in this apartment.
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Jul 21, 2019 19:15
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Criss posting from lol trump Does anyone itt have experience fuckin with section 8/public housing My gf and I qualify but I Super Qualify if I apply by myself so I'm wondering how easy it would be to sneak her in after the fact if I just moved her poo poo in with mine
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Jul 21, 2019 19:41
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i want to buy a mop so that i can clean my kitchen floor better and the thought of spending 10 bucks to buy one is freaking me out lol
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Jul 21, 2019 20:46
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turn off the TV posted:i want to buy a mop so that i can clean my kitchen floor better and the thought of spending 10 bucks to buy one is freaking me out lol dollar store it’s a dollar
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Jul 21, 2019 21:42
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Goon Danton posted:What is the crack ping thing pills 2 break your brain its a trump thread meme
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Jul 21, 2019 21:43
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I'm gonna die lol
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Jul 21, 2019 21:47
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Chokes McGee posted:dollar store this is not a thing where i live, unfortunately it turns out that letting your apartment accumulate so much trash in it that you feel embarrassed taking all of it out to the dumpster is not a great thing to do but i've now it's probably cleaner that it has been in two years and it looks weird as hell turn off the TV has issued a correction as of 01:51 on Jul 22, 2019 |
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Jul 21, 2019 21:55
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turn off the TV posted:this is not a thing where i live, unfortunately I have only ever let my trash pile up for about a month, but I also was embarrassed to be hauling out multiple bags. On the plus side, my apartment feels so much bigger now that everything is tidy.
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Jul 22, 2019 02:18
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:Criss posting from lol trump forewarning, i am not an expert on this at all, but, if you both qualify and she's going to be staying there more than very very occasionally it's probably worth putting her on the paperwork up front rather than risking getting evicted for having an extra resident who isn't listed
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Jul 22, 2019 02:50
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hailthefish posted:forewarning, i am not an expert on this at all, but, if you both qualify and she's going to be staying there more than very very occasionally it's probably worth putting her on the paperwork up front rather than risking getting evicted for having an extra resident who isn't listed yeah im not going to becasue separately we both qualify as low income (i qualify as very low income) but together we make like five hundred a year too much for a two person family america!
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Jul 22, 2019 03:02
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im not going to gently caress around on it i mean
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Jul 22, 2019 03:09
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condolences on falling into one of the many deliberately constructed pits to punish poor people for existing, goonfriend gently caress this devil country
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Jul 22, 2019 03:10
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on tuesday my case manager told me that he thought it'd be good for me to get an emotional support animal like a cat and today one of my siblings had to get rid of one of their cats because they are moving and now i have a cat
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Jul 22, 2019 03:45
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Addamere posted:Anyway, it's a beautiful day in the Twin Cities and the sun feels good. Yeah, today was nice  .I know how hard it is to even step outside some days. I’ve got my own head full of issues, but maybe we can go grab ice cream together sometime. 
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Jul 22, 2019 03:59
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turn off the TV posted:on tuesday my case manager told me that he thought it'd be good for me to get an emotional support animal like a cat and today one of my siblings had to get rid of one of their cats because they are moving and now i have a cat Pics
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Jul 22, 2019 04:00
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redsniper posted:Pics 
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Jul 22, 2019 05:09
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turn off the TV posted:on tuesday my case manager told me that he thought it'd be good for me to get an emotional support animal like a cat and today one of my siblings had to get rid of one of their cats because they are moving and now i have a cat hell yeah, cats cats cats 
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Jul 22, 2019 05:54
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Chokes McGee posted:pills 2 break your brain 
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Jul 22, 2019 06:28
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Chokes McGee posted:spent the last half hour sobbing my eyes out over turning 39 tomorrow I turned 40 the other day. it was 2 days after my almost 16 year old cat died. anyone know of a place to get good mail-order cbd? edit: not trying to be a jerk, I know aging hurts. 138 has issued a correction as of 12:03 on Jul 22, 2019 |
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Jul 22, 2019 10:32
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not looking forward to this week, my office is extremely for one person, with one desk space and one computer and nothing else, but my coworker who works remotely decided it would be easier to pick up her kids this week if she comes in to our “shared” space, which she hasn’t actually seen before so maybe she just doesn’t understand how bad it is. I hate being in close quarters with someone and since it was designed for one person the quarters are close in a way best articulated in inches making me feel kinda anxious about not just being able to do my normal thing st work
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Jul 22, 2019 12:01
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Lol I have a deadline in 48 hours for work and now it turns out my computers gonna be needed elsewhere for 12 of them
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Jul 22, 2019 14:45
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Applied to like ten jobs yesterday, already got rejected from one Cool
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Jul 22, 2019 16:03
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:Applied to like ten jobs yesterday, already got rejected from one having done like 12-18 months of pretty full pipe job hunting that only ended 9 months ago, I wish everyone of them who passed on even interviewing me sent me a "thanks but you suck rear end and smell funny" email so I wouldn't hang onto any sort of hope they'd get in contact. good luck on your hunt. poo poo sucks and is soul crushing
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Jul 22, 2019 16:18
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:Applied to like ten jobs yesterday, already got rejected from one thats better than never hearing back i had a dream i had a sliver in my arm and out of stubbornness i didnt tweeze it out but dug it out with my nails and turned it into a gaping wound that needed stitches. hows that for a metaphor
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Jul 22, 2019 16:24
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I have an appointment at a state office that finds employment and helps with continuing education for disabled adults so hopefully fingers crossed they'll be able to find me something and I won't have to do this job hunt poo poo much longer
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Jul 22, 2019 16:46
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I also just got an email and made an appointment to interview for a full time janitor position on Friday. 12.50/hr, 40/wk, vacation and sick days.
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Jul 22, 2019 17:15
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awesome, vacation and sick days are a fantastic thing to have in terms of providing like basic mental security. I know all to well how crushing the job hunt is, being only a month out from a 14 month hunt, and I can’t think of anything more soul crushing except actually working maybe
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Jul 22, 2019 17:20
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The job sounds like actual rear end so idk but
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Jul 22, 2019 17:23
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Eat This Glob posted:having done like 12-18 months of pretty full pipe job hunting that only ended 9 months ago, I wish everyone of them who passed on even interviewing me sent me a "thanks but you suck rear end and smell funny" email so I wouldn't hang onto any sort of hope they'd get in contact. good luck on your hunt. poo poo sucks and is soul crushing Dude, absolutely same. I've been searching on and off for the last couple of months, and drat does the process ever make you feel like a piece of poo poo. 67 applications: 13 outright rejections, 7 rejections after interviews, and the rest are ghosts. I did promise to buy myself a really nice cake at 100 jobs with the phrase "I applied to a 100 jobs and all I got was this cake" Doesn't help trying to sell yourself when you have low self-esteem either. It's like this Achewood strip at every phone screening: 
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Jul 22, 2019 17:35
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job hunting sucks, but i do have an interview tomorrow. any (very) last minute tips to keep my nerves in check?
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Jul 22, 2019 17:48
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Equeen posted:job hunting sucks, but i do have an interview tomorrow. any (very) last minute tips to keep my nerves in check? Apathy/detachment
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Jul 22, 2019 18:02
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i care about what people think of me too much 
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Jul 22, 2019 18:04
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Equeen posted:i care about what people think of me too much Despite having anxiety and depression, for me it's never about big stuff. The internal stream of consciousness for me about big stuff is to ask myself: "What's the most likely bad outcome?" And for lots of situations, that answer is "nothing changes about my life". If you don't get this job, or if that person doesn't go out with you, or whatever else, then the most likely bad outcome is nothing at all. And for me that removes any pressure at all. On the other hand, I'm also so anxious that going outside at all for me nowadays is a great effort, and as a result I'm physically and socially isolated; so, I'm perhaps not the best source of advice with regards to overcoming anxiety.
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Jul 22, 2019 18:10
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Equeen posted:job hunting sucks, but i do have an interview tomorrow. any (very) last minute tips to keep my nerves in check? prep. know some info about the role and the company, and also plan to get a nice snack after as a treat
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Jul 22, 2019 18:18
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