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Extensive Vamping posted:I'm trying to wonder if my problem might be bpd. I've been assigned a therapist but I haven't made any appointments for a while because I don't think he can help. Hey Vamping, without giving much detail, do you happen to know what kind of psychological theory your therapist practices? The best for BPD (if you have it) is 100% DBT. It was developed by someone with BPD who created the system and techniques because other psychological theories failed her. If you are interested in any resources, let me know.
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Oct 17, 2019 00:24
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I think I'd feel a lot better if I could just turn off my brain and get some sleep. The times I've gotten 8 hours straight are so memorable because I feel alert when I wake up and for the rest of the day, and it's such an infrequent thing. It's only happened twice in 2019 so far. I've never slept well, but it's getting worse as I get older because I just can't sleep in anymore, so I'm not making up the hours on the back end. I do everything right: exercise, eat well, no screens in the bedroom, take my pills, etc. Kaiser sent me to sleep therapy about 10 years ago, which was literally group therapy for insomniacs and not helpful. I feel like my brain is melting all the time.
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Oct 17, 2019 05:04
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nikosoft posted:I think I'd feel a lot better if I could just turn off my brain and get some sleep. The times I've gotten 8 hours straight are so memorable because I feel alert when I wake up and for the rest of the day, and it's such an infrequent thing. It's only happened twice in 2019 so far. I've never slept well, but it's getting worse as I get older because I just can't sleep in anymore, so I'm not making up the hours on the back end. I do everything right: exercise, eat well, no screens in the bedroom, take my pills, etc. Kaiser sent me to sleep therapy about 10 years ago, which was literally group therapy for insomniacs and not helpful. I feel like my brain is melting all the time. have you tried progressive relaxation? or even relaxation videos on YouTube? it sounds dumb as hell but after like a decade of insomnia the only thing that knocks me out is wacky asmr videos like you get a woman pretending to give you an extended cranial nerve exam in a Dutch accent and the next thing I know Im in a puddle of my own drool at 8AM its the weirdest poo poo but my point is, try something relaxing on YouTube or even a bob ross video. or the mst3k twitch stream. just something to soothe the brainfire a little bit to give you the space you need
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Oct 17, 2019 07:03
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Chokes McGee posted:in all seriousness I kind of think there should be experiments on MDMA's effectiveness against depression. Ketamine is showing potential, why not try the drug that is literally formulated to make you feel better about everything MDMA essentially uses all ur seratonin at once so if u have depression u will not be having a good time in the aftermath, it's potential is better suited towards PTSD.
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Oct 17, 2019 09:57
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Speaking of not being able to feel the happies. I think it's reasonable to say I probably have some amount of Anhedonia. In that I feel anger and despair 10x stronger than I feel any sort of joy. Example: About a year ago now I won a MTG event at my LGS. The reward was a (potentially very value) promo card. I pulled one worth 70$. Probably one of the biggest victories of my life. My response. Initial excitement, some pride, following by my brain telling me I got lucky and didn't deserve it. A few months earlier than that I accidentally caught a depressing headline as I was exiting out of Windows 8 and was wrecked for over a day. (I've since disabled that feature) This is partially a result of my mood stabilizers. My doc and I adjusted my meds, which worked out great for weight loss but didn't really tip the mood scales in any real direction (but holy poo poo do I feel it if I'm off them for even a weekend). He suggested anti-psychotics. We tried ability. Unfortunately it reacted poorly with my arthritis and I was in constant pain. Then he said all other anti-psychotics have weight gain as a side effect. I am 310 pounds. I've lost 30 lbs but probably need to at least lose 50 more. I do not have the luxury of putting on weight. So I guess I don't get to be happy ever again. Actually I don't really know how happy I was capable of being to begin with. This is pretty much always how I've been since I've been a teenager at least.
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Oct 17, 2019 12:28
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nikosoft posted:I think I'd feel a lot better if I could just turn off my brain and get some sleep. The times I've gotten 8 hours straight are so memorable because I feel alert when I wake up and for the rest of the day, and it's such an infrequent thing. It's only happened twice in 2019 so far. I've never slept well, but it's getting worse as I get older because I just can't sleep in anymore, so I'm not making up the hours on the back end. I do everything right: exercise, eat well, no screens in the bedroom, take my pills, etc. Kaiser sent me to sleep therapy about 10 years ago, which was literally group therapy for insomniacs and not helpful. I feel like my brain is melting all the time. i was going through a spell after moving and starting a new job last fall where i just couldn't fall asleep, even with OTC sleep aids. I did some "guided meditations" with some free stuff from Audible through a publisher called MoveWith. If you are a member there, I highly recommend it. There are a ton of free programs and I can rarely get through one 15 minute one now. The vocally-guided breathing exercises really did it for me. If you dont have audible, I'm sure there are good ones on YouTube too, like the asmr videos that do the trick for chokes
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Oct 17, 2019 16:58
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Eat This Glob posted:i was going through a spell after moving and starting a new job last fall where i just couldn't fall asleep, even with OTC sleep aids. I did some "guided meditations" with some free stuff from Audible through a publisher called MoveWith. If you are a member there, I highly recommend it. There are a ton of free programs and I can rarely get through one 15 minute one now. The vocally-guided breathing exercises really did it for me. If you dont have audible, I'm sure there are good ones on YouTube too, like the asmr videos that do the trick for chokes Heh, my therapist just recommended stuff like this for my sleeping issues. Headspace and Waking Up in my case. Currently writing this during my normal morning rage as I was woken up from a rare deep sleep by some extra loud gym rats. The thought that always repeats in my head is "I'm spending over $2,000 per month (including utilities) for a studio apartment that I can't even sleep in." Also, ironically, going to the therapist at 6pm on the other side of town by train/walking means I go to bed late and don't get enough sleep to function the following day. I've found I need about 3 hours of "chill time" just to go to sleep. Which of course means my social life is non-existent, and I'm dreading my wife's boss's upcoming Halloween party since it means a sub-5 hour sleep at best - along with dealing with all the social bullshit. What's a non-pathetic but low effort Halloween costume that can work in Australian spring (likely around 28C/83F)? Bonus points if it prevents me from being able to talk.
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Oct 17, 2019 20:25
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UnfortunateSexFart posted:
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Oct 17, 2019 21:02
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i have to go to a Halloween party for the first time in a decade and I'm trying to find a costume myself. It is at a cops house, so I'm hoping to offend 80% of the people there and make things super awkward
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Oct 17, 2019 21:29
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Eat This Glob posted:i have to go to a Halloween party for the first time in a decade and I'm trying to find a costume myself. It is at a cops house, so I'm hoping to offend 80% of the people there and make things super awkward Cop costume with a pig mask
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Oct 17, 2019 21:33
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StashAugustine posted:Cop costume with a pig mask Not a half bad idea, but I realized the mental health thread probably isnt a good place to crowdsource ideas to bother cops at a party, so I'll take it elsewhere lol
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Oct 17, 2019 21:44
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My brain continues to be broken. Also my stomach. I went off work for a few weeks because I couldnt figure out what was going on. Saw my psychiatrist, made some adjustments, felt a bit better. Returned to work this week. I still can't do it. I went in yesterday and my stomach started to hurt. I dont know if it's hunger (I ate less than two hours before getting to work), or nerves (I dont feel anxious or stressed), or something else. Maybe I'm dying. My brain feels okay but my body still cant handle it. Or rather, my brains feels okay but not good enough to actually push through discomfort for a whole day. I tried eating a banana at work but had trouble keeping it down. Then I left. Today I'm a loving mess. Didnt have time to cook. Need to cook before I go or I'll fail. Tried a frozen pizza. The thought of frozen pizza made me feel sick. I broke it over my knee and threw it out. Now I had some Insure and I'm trying not to cry. I want to work. I want to make money. I want to survive. I want to have friends. I want to have a happy life. But I'm broken and can't make things work for myself. I dont know what to do I can't support myself like this. I'm not functional and I need to function. I dont know what to do.
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Oct 17, 2019 22:23
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Reality Sinner posted:My brain continues to be broken. Also my stomach.
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Oct 17, 2019 22:27
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I mentioned it. They didnt follow up. I'm going to see my family doctor tomorrow.
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Oct 17, 2019 22:29
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Reality Sinner posted:I mentioned it. They didnt follow up. I'm going to see my family doctor tomorrow.
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Oct 17, 2019 22:32
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Good news: you can start looking for a new, better psychiatrist, psychologist, or therapist. Seriously, if your doctor isn't even listening to you then they can't help you.
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Oct 17, 2019 22:34
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Taking the last step down off effexor. Today was day one and I was getting very mad at little things and fighting to keep the anger under wraps. I know very little about anger management.
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Oct 18, 2019 01:37
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Yesterday was a rough one, felt like I was barely hanging on all day. Just devastating sadness. Made it through, doing better today, but I still feel like a rock being ground down by a glacier. I'll echo the desire to sleep for 12 hours a day.
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Oct 18, 2019 16:49
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guess who was struck by the overwhelming feeling that shes a giant piece of poo poo and useless and a burden to everyone around her today its dickeye
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Oct 18, 2019 22:57
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:guess who was struck by the overwhelming feeling that shes a giant piece of poo poo and useless and a burden to everyone around her today Quit posting my exact problem this week
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Oct 18, 2019 23:35
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If you are lonely, consider hanging out at http://goontu.be/ tonight or anytime. It's a video channel for a very tight-knit group of goons. You've got a couple goons, or several on weekend nights, to chat with. You don't need to click anything to start watching whatever's playing. Sometimes music, sometimes full movies, sometimes odd videos. Registration involves just making up a name. Add more videos from youtube/twitter/vimeo/twitch/etc. to subject everyone in the chat room to. They'll enter a queue and everyone will watch. There's a very slow GBS thread for Goontube and an internal forum on-site too. There's enough Goontube inside jokes to rival SAclopedia. Very chill place.
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Oct 19, 2019 01:59
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:guess who was struck by the overwhelming feeling that shes a giant piece of poo poo and useless and a burden to everyone around her today Siljmonster posted:Quit posting my exact problem this week I think that feelings of guilt are one of the main symptoms of depression. I have a lot of problems with them, too. About the best thing I can do is keep in mind that I don't think that people with psych or personal struggles are a burden, and that because of that I shouldn't think that I am, either.
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Oct 19, 2019 05:53
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It has been five months today since my fiance dumped me out of the blue. I wish I knew I would feel totally okay again. It's definitely gotten better but lately I've been hit with horrible depressive moods. I am grateful that I am able to sleep again, with the help of a THC tincture that combats my restless leg syndrome. But often waking up and knowing a whole day is ahead of me, alone, is dread-inducing. 
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Oct 19, 2019 14:49
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PsychedelicWarlord posted:It has been five months today since my fiance dumped me out of the blue. I wish I knew I would feel totally okay again. It's definitely gotten better but lately I've been hit with horrible depressive moods. I am grateful that I am able to sleep again, with the help of a THC tincture that combats my restless leg syndrome. But often waking up and knowing a whole day is ahead of me, alone, is dread-inducing. I've been there with the engagement break-up. Best thing that I can tell you to do is to keep occupied and exercise if you can. It's difficult but you will get through it.
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Oct 19, 2019 15:44
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Bearded Whiteguy posted:Hey Vamping, without giving much detail, do you happen to know what kind of psychological theory your therapist practices? The best for BPD (if you have it) is 100% DBT. It was developed by someone with BPD who created the system and techniques because other psychological theories failed her. Thanks, I'll see what he uses. I did find a reddit thread on DBT that looks useful. Procrastination is a big issue for me, and I found a workbook for it. I'll look at it later. erosion has issued a correction as of 18:13 on Oct 19, 2019 |
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Oct 19, 2019 18:10
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Zeroisanumber posted:I've been there with the engagement break-up. Best thing that I can tell you to do is to keep occupied and exercise if you can. It's difficult but you will get through it. I read somewhere that 1 in 5 engagements fail. No one ever talks about it though...I'm 25 and all my friends are just meeting people or getting married. I took up running, which helped  trying to pick up new hobbies too. Thanks for the response and solidarity, it means a lot
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Oct 19, 2019 18:30
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PsychedelicWarlord posted:It's definitely gotten better but lately I've been hit with horrible depressive moods. I am grateful that I am able to sleep again, with the help of a THC tincture that combats my restless leg syndrome. But often waking up and knowing a whole day is ahead of me, alone, is dread-inducing. Weed *does* that to me. Without fail I get depressed and forlorn for all of the next day after I've smoked. Nothing depressing happens during while I smoke, it's just super delayed. I don't even smoke late at night. I can't explain it.
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Oct 19, 2019 18:45
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ugh sleeping all day, i feel so useless.
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Oct 19, 2019 19:25
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went by guitar center last night to pick up some strings and was planning on putting them on today and playing for the first time in years after my gf cut my old ones off raging out instead she wakes me up this morning drunk as hell to tell me she called my coworker and accused her of sending inappropriate pictures of herself to me, when nothing like that whatsoever has ever happened so my boss called afterwards and now I have a meeting with the title 9 coordinator first thing monday morning cool
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Oct 19, 2019 19:32
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Extensive Vamping posted:Procrastination is a big issue for me, and I found a workbook for it. quote:I'll look at it later. 
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Oct 19, 2019 20:15
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PsychedelicWarlord posted:I read somewhere that 1 in 5 engagements fail. No one ever talks about it though...I'm 25 and all my friends are just meeting people or getting married. I took up running, which helped Im 37. the first girl I ever asked out ended up going out with my best friend for the next 5 years as a direct result of me asking her out. my longest relationship was over 15 years ago and ended with her telling me she was pregnant and cheating on me on my birthday. everything since then has been a spectacular failure (I have more than a small part in the failures, dont get me wrong). love sucks sometimes. Its good to try to focus on things that make you happy and Im glad youre finding something not only good but healthy for you to enjoy.
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Oct 19, 2019 20:40
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Flavius Aetass posted:went by guitar center last night to pick up some strings and was planning on putting them on today and playing for the first time in years after my gf cut my old ones off raging out What kind of guitar
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Oct 19, 2019 22:59
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I have suffered from OCD since I was a child that went undiagnosed until my early 20's. I then began to have panic attacks in my late teens. I came from a small, rural community that had no psychiatric outpatient care. My general practitioner inappropriately put me through series of antidepressants that culminated in messing me up pretty bad (active psychosis) for a grip. I was inpatient for five days at one point when I formally got diagnosed. When I got out on my own and moved to a larger city I sought psychiatric care to further my life's journey of tangible healing. I've done CBT (hugely helpful), mindfulness (also hugely helpful), and my current psychiatrist (apparently a very accomplished psychoanalyst and prolific author) has me monitoring my own dreams to see how my unconscious works. He taught me a technique for pitching problems and scenarios in your daily life to your unconscious to see how it symbolizes and 'speaks,' and I can honestly say it's fascinating. He gave me some stuff to read to explore the field, which included Marx, Gramsci, Freud, Jung which he says formed his ideological formation. It's been a journey, and for anyone that is struggling: Your pain is real. Your pain is justified. You are more powerful than your pain, and one day you will realize it.
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Oct 19, 2019 23:06
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:What kind of guitar cheap epiphone les paul special 2
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Oct 19, 2019 23:17
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Flavius Aetass posted:cheap epiphone les paul special 2 Nice. My old roommate and best friend managed a guitar center, I'm thinking about texting her to be like yeah what kind of deal can you get me on a mexi tele Maybe get an overdrive pedal and an eight track and gently caress around and make some poo poo, but mostly, I want that mexi tele. Beautiful instruments.
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Oct 20, 2019 02:36
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even the mexican strats are so overpriced these days. good luck with a telecaster, you're right about how they play (and look) I wonder if there's any appreciable quality difference between fender and squier anymore
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Oct 20, 2019 02:56
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i love music so much. i wish i could play an instrument or sing, but I'd be a detriment to the artform lol. my favorite family story involves my (still alive, 90 y/o grandmother) being told to lip sync by a nun in catholic school because her voice essentially offended god lol
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Oct 20, 2019 03:02
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Eat This Glob posted:i love music so much. i wish i could play an instrument or sing, but I'd be a detriment to the artform lol. my favorite family story involves my (still alive, 90 y/o grandmother) being told to lip sync by a nun in catholic school because her voice essentially offended god lol I wish you knew how many people who talk about playing music (like myself) are not good at it but still enjoy it go to a pawn shop and buy a cheap guitar or keyboard and get on youtube for lessons
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Oct 20, 2019 03:05
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i accidentally double dosed on wellbutrin a few days ago and somehow my jaw seems to be getting even more sore as time goes on
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Oct 20, 2019 05:05
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turn off the TV posted:i accidentally double dosed on wellbutrin a few days ago and somehow my jaw seems to be getting even more sore as time goes on
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Oct 20, 2019 05:10
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