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It's fascinating to look at what is effectively someone's diary of their descent into insane conspiracy theories, but goddamn all I can think about once I step back from the posts is that this guy genuinely-believes they've uncovered a sinister underworld from videogames and random media and holy cannoli why is our healthcare system in shambles. Sing Along, I say this with all sincerity: schizophrenia and it's relatives are a bitch to deal with, especially when you have easy access to media platforms that reaffirm your suspicions at the click of a mouse. It's impossible to tell if you're pursuing this out of curiosity or if you feel there's truth here, but please please please don't allow conspiraciesto dominate your thoughts and alienate you from your friends, family, and prospects of living life without fear that someone is plotting against you.
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ChickenHeart posted:It's fascinating to look at what is effectively someone's diary of their descent into insane conspiracy theories, but goddamn all I can think about once I step back from the posts is that this guy genuinely-believes they've uncovered a sinister underworld from videogames and random media and holy cannoli why is our healthcare system in shambles. Thank you! I appreciate it. I've worked closely with a psychiatrist and several psychologists, and am still working with a psychologist and I do not have, believe it or not, any diagnoses. I've got an E/N thread going as a companion to this which you may be interested in: https://forums.somethingawful.com/showthread.php?threadid=3964872 Also, I don't believe that the concepts I'm engaging with are necessarily sinister or that they have any physical representation on Earth. It's a noospheric phenomenon, I believe.
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ChickenHeart posted:It's fascinating to look at what is effectively someone's diary of their descent into insane conspiracy theories, but goddamn all I can think about once I step back from the posts is that this guy genuinely-believes they've uncovered a sinister underworld from videogames and random media and holy cannoli why is our healthcare system in shambles. Lol that poo poo was like legit hour long news programs back in the mortal Kombat days that actually affected a rating system on video games. It’s good to know our moral guidance was crafted by paranoid schizophrenics who view fun and enjoyment of things as a threat to the proper development of impressionable youths. 
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ClamdestineBoyster posted:Lol that poo poo was like legit hour long news programs back in the mortal Kombat days that actually affected a rating system on video games. It’s good to know our moral guidance was crafted by paranoid schizophrenics who view fun and enjoyment of things as a threat to the proper development of impressionable youths. Hey, friend. I've always enjoyed your Posting.
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ChickenHeart posted:living life without fear that someone is plotting against you. I can't get into detail about the details of my actual work, but let's just say that it isn't a coincidence that it is very hard to dox me. I don't believe anybody is plotting against me, though, or that I have any enemies. I think people may misunderstand me, but I'm working on communicating more clearly. Let me just say that, Walter Mitty style, you really do not want to know who I actually work for. In the 1999 autobiography John Glenn: A Memoir by Mercury by astronaut and US Senator John Glenn, he states, "The average person could Walter Mitty him- or herself into winning the Indianapolis 500, since everybody drove a car; all you had to do was imagine yourself going faster and making nothing but left turns. But space was so new nobody had a way to relate to it realistically." Sing Along fucked around with this message at 20:11 on Apr 13, 2021 |
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Ok, I believe we've reached the phase where I can link a currently unfinished short story that I began writing as a form of art therapy: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1qY1mTUC7eOb-5FVdITQ-nE6cVup1Mw24v2M-o9Lv4rA/edit?usp=sharing An artist I'm working with described it as an "Internet Remix." Since the internet is a collaborative project, so too is this. Feel free to suggest any links or edits. Commenting is open for anonymous users on this version of the documentt. Sing Along fucked around with this message at 20:38 on Apr 13, 2021 |
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Apr 13, 2021 20:01
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Colonel Cancer posted:Just because you have schizophrenia doesn't mean they aren't out there to get you See, if I had schizophrenia I'd consider this very unhelpful posting but instead I find it very funny.
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Nefarious 2.0 posted:yes please tell us what you're wearing lmfao he's probably this guy:  or maybe this guy?  or quite possibly this guy?  Hahaha imagine if this squad rolled up to a house party. Some Macklemore Thift Shop vibes.
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Apr 13, 2021 20:35
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I agree with all of this
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Sing Along posted:Ok, I believe we've reached the phase where I can link a currently unfinished short story that I began writing as a form of art therapy: Snake Dance posted:I agree with all of this Then you'll love the short story I linked here:
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Does nick land fit into any of this??
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SSJ2 Goku Wilders posted:Does nick land fit into any of this?? Hell yeah, dude. Check this out, also check out your post ID: quote="SSJ2 Goku Wilders" post="513968888"  I'm just shitposting on the shoulders of giants. I think we're currently in this quadrant:  but I am hopeful that we can make it to this one:  or, if all else fails, this one:  Sing Along fucked around with this message at 21:00 on Apr 13, 2021 |
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Apr 13, 2021 20:57
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I hope you can find the wish granter and change the noosphere for the better
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Apr 13, 2021 21:02
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Badactura posted:I hope you can find the wish granter and change the noosphere for the better Do you have any wishes? I've played enough STALKER to know where this is going. 
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Apr 13, 2021 21:21
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Do I need to have played Metal Gear to understand? I have not played any of them. I have seen a cardboard box though
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I believe snakes are somehow involved? Paging local snake professional to this thread
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Colonel Cancer posted:I believe snakes are somehow involved? Paging local snake professional to this thread Snakes are very much involved. Ventral EggSac posted:quote="Ventral EggSac" post="513969822" No. What is your favorite media? 
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Apr 13, 2021 21:44
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Sing Along posted:Hell yeah, dude. Check this out, also check out your post ID: I love this poo poo because it implies people are every bit as capable and motivated to become the weird things they dream about.
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Apr 13, 2021 21:50
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What's the significance of the post id?
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SSJ2 Goku Wilders posted:What's the significance of the post id? Are you familiar with: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kek_(mythology) ? The Ogdoad consisted of four pairs of deities, four male gods paired with their female counterparts. You asked about Nick Land and you got four 8's. It might be the  It also may be this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsgF5yz8SLE We're just not sure. Context: https://steamcommunity.com/id/GangAftAgley/ Sing Along fucked around with this message at 22:40 on Apr 13, 2021 |
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Apr 13, 2021 22:31
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sure okay posted:I love this poo poo because it implies people are every bit as capable and motivated to become the weird things they dream about. Our current working hypothesis is that they in fact are.
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I think I've finished the story, and I would really appreciate feedback on it.
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Sing Along posted:Our current working hypothesis is that they in fact are. 
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Apr 14, 2021 01:23
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Sing Along posted:I think I've finished the story, and I would really appreciate feedback on it. its like finding a video (sic)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=50707mV4jcY that was only released on betamax tapes OMFG FURRY fucked around with this message at 02:45 on Apr 14, 2021 |
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Apr 14, 2021 02:38
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took three pages until the nick land namedrop, nice
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OMFG FURRY posted:post="513977153"] You're not going to believe what the video content looks like. Green Nail Polish posted:post="513977371" You can't rush these things if you hope to do them well. They happen when they happen.
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Oh, let me poll the room: where on that alignment chart would people like to live?
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Sing Along posted:Are you familiar with: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kek_(mythology) ? Don't you think that's a stretch? It has four eights in it, and there's an ancient goddess associated with two times four. It's really entertaining in an internet-shamanic, ultra-associative way, but this isn't as good as your early material. Also, you say that you've seen psychiatrists and they've cleared you of any diagnoses. But you've shown in the past that you're capable of lying. Why wouldn't you be lying about that, as well? Also what's the significance of the guy calling out the nick land 'namedrop'. If there's anything that this reminds me of, it's land's meth-addled speculative fiction. The only elements missing are land's purposeful critiques against humanism and his polemic style
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I think this guy might literally be ocelot
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SSJ2 Goku Wilders posted:Also, you say that you've seen psychiatrists and they've cleared you of any diagnoses. But you've shown in the past that you're capable of lying. Why wouldn't you be lying about that, as well? The easiest thing to do is to lie to yourself. Are you sure you're not a foetus plugged into a hypercomputer? Can you prove that you are actually an adult human being and not a golden retriever using a mind-brain interface to post? On the internet, nobody knows you're a spider. See timestamp, please: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D61lg7iuVaI&t=103s You strike me as more concerned with defending your own preconceptions relating to the world you believe yourself to inhabit than with asking me questions. May I ask you a very significant one? Can you tell me what it is that you think you believe in? Sing Along fucked around with this message at 12:33 on Apr 14, 2021 |
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Ghost Leviathan posted:I think this guy might literally be ocelot Close, but no cigar: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pardine_genet "We need tension...conflict. The world today has become too soft. We're living in an age where true feelings are suppressed. So we're going to shake things up a bit. We'll create a world dripping with tension... ...a world filled with greed and suspicion, bravery and cowardice."
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I am become Deaf: destroyer of words. NEAR // MISS Thank You for Saying You’re Welcome In Utopia High Tide at Race Point Don’t Tell Me about the Tide . . . Grief Haunts the Spoken Nowhere Is Just around the Corner S’i’ fosse Corrections Intaglio The Bluebird of Happiness Catachresis My Love Spring Otherwise He’d Be Dead This Poem Is a Hostage The Lie of Art Why I Am Not a Hippie Apoplexy / Apoplexie Truly Unexceptional Passing All Poetry Is Loco I Used to Be a Plastic Bottle Why I Am Not an Atheist The Island of Lost Song Confederate Battle Flag Sacred Hate Me and My Pharaoh . . . Catullus 70 Where My Bread Is Buttered He Said He Was a Professor Klang Autobiography of an Ex- Why I Am Not a Buddhist Ballad Laid Bare by Its Devices (Even) Animation Also Rises the Sun Georgics Concentration (An Elegy) How I Became Prehuman Pinky’s Rule My Mommy Is Lost Better Off Dead Oopera Procedure Water Under the Bridge . . . Recap Unconstrained Writing Ugly Duckling Transvaluation Beyond Compare The Pond Off Pamet Road The Nun’s Story Our United Fates To Gonzalo Rojas I Don’t Remember Flag Contact Western Union Very Urgent Her Ecstasy Is Abstract At Sunset, after the Plum Blossoms Begin to Fall . . . Each Separate Dying Ember Betcha Don’t Say I Passed When I Die Ring Song God’s Silence Drambuie Doggone Sane Fado Wild Turning This Poem Is a Decoy My Luck Mystic Brokerage Effigy Seldom Splendor Song of the Wandering Poet In the Meantime Before Time Song What Makes a Poem a Poem? There’s a Hole in My Pocket Song Dynasty Elfking Lacrimae Rerum Fare Thee Well  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AlzgDVLtU6g https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vX9KE0PaD-4 
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Ghost Leviathan posted:I think this guy might literally be ocelot Exploration may be ill advised, but fortune favors the bold. https://metalgear.fandom.com/wiki/The_Sorrow He also told Snake that "light and darkness" dwelled within him, referring to the eventual conception of Solid and Liquid Snake. He was an expert of psychotherapy and hypnosis, such as when he made Venom Snake and himself believe that the former was truly Big Boss in 1984, as well as his planned ruse of assuming Liquid's identity in 2014. In 2009, Ocelot took a hypodermic injection to supposedly prevent Liquid Snake's arm from exerting control over him. During this occasion, his heart seemingly gave two heartbeats, as heard by Raiden, using a directional microphone. By 2014, Ocelot had switched Liquid's arm for a cybernetic prosthesis to restore balance to his psyche. Sing Along fucked around with this message at 16:34 on Apr 14, 2021 |
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Apr 14, 2021 12:28
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Anybody want to trade songs back and forth?
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Sing Along posted:The easiest thing to do is to lie to yourself. Are you sure you're not a foetus plugged into a hypercomputer? Can you prove that you are actually an adult human being and not a golden retriever using a mind-brain interface to post? On the internet, nobody knows you're a spider. See timestamp, please: There's a lot more value (of whatever kind) to your shamanism when you don't use it as a foil for a flimsy Cartesian skepticism. If you didn't care about consistency, why try to argue the you're not the same person as the schizo guy, in the first place, you know? You started out with some X-Files type stuff, only to turn it into a Choose Your Own Adventure story. Have some respect for your own craft
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one time in college i borrowed MGS for the game cube from a friend but I forgot to also borrow a memory card and didnt realize until I had played for like 4 hours and then I was like gently caress it I guess I just gotta beat it all in one go so I spent the rest of the day getting all faded and doing cool rear end CQC moves and espionage poo poo until I beat the game at like midnight
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Sing Along posted:Also, I only took a brief vacation into FYAD because I had some theories I was testing and they turned out to be fairly accurate as far as the behavior of hiveminds and fractals. 
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SSJ2 Goku Wilders posted:There's a lot more value (of whatever kind) to your shamanism when you don't use it as a foil for a flimsy Cartesian skepticism. If you didn't care about consistency, why try to argue the you're not the same person as the schizo guy, in the first place, you know? You started out with some X-Files type stuff, only to turn it into a Choose Your Own Adventure story. Have some respect for your own craft I never described myself as shamanistic. I believe I've used the phrase 'Pataphysical Theurgy to describe my system of spiritual practice and I tend to describe my religious beliefs as "Unorthodox Trinitarian Deism." I legitimately am not the other poster, which you seem to have a hard time believing. This is why I'm totally happy for mods to investigate my credit cards, billing info, IP address, whatever. Cards on the table, cross my heart and please ban me if I'm lying (I'm not): We are two discrete posters (by which I mean two separate human beings - I am substantially younger than he is) who haven't talked since like 2017 or 2018 (hard to recall). Can you please tell me what it is that you think you believe in? I'm attempting to convey to you what it is that I believe in. Oh, did you look at the comments on the youtube AMV I linked to you? There was a timestamp there for a reason: I was intending to communicate in ways that words alone can't. Nooner posted:one time in college i borrowed MGS for the game cube from a friend but I forgot to also borrow a memory card and didnt realize until I had played for like 4 hours and then I was like gently caress it I guess I just gotta beat it all in one go so I spent the rest of the day getting all faded and doing cool rear end CQC moves and espionage poo poo until I beat the game at like midnight I believe that this is the neoplatonic ideal of MGS gameplay. Sing Along fucked around with this message at 23:31 on Apr 14, 2021 |
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