Zen Dudeism posted:

Actually, I'll address this. I didn't tell Arnie I wanted to kill myself. Arnie told me I should. He melted down on me, told me everyone hated me in a very long steam rant, and made me feel like I honestly had no friends in the world and that I had no value on the forums or IRL. He didn't specifically say to stream it, he said I should do everyone a favor and kill myself, but to make sure that everyone knew about it so they could revel in the fact that they no longer had to deal with me and so forth.

Add in the personal poo poo I was going through and the large amount of drugs I was strung out on, and welp.