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Cenen posted:I am so sorry for any offense I may have caused in the GiP Discord, it is a place I enjoy and movie night is the only thing I have to look forward to in my entire life. I am a 30yo single male in a college town surrounded by children I could not hope to relate to in the middle of the pandemic and the movie night was the one night a week during the semesters I could get high and relax and not be alone and if there is anything I could do to be allowed back in the Discord please let me know and I will do it immediately. There’s a discord? And, bro, as someone who has to rub shoulders with what amounts to “well read, but stupid children” here in college, I can tell you for a fact you ain’t alone and you can find someone, even among your peers, to relate to and bullshit with. You aren’t alone, your life is not merely what you wrote about up there. I can’t possibly comment on the rest. That’s between you, them, and a whole lot of context I just don’t have. Hope you didn’t use the gamer word at least tho.
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# ¿ Jan 31, 2021 04:05 |
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# ¿ May 9, 2024 04:46 |
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Idk why you edited out but I saw this earlier. This was the place for said post
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# ¿ Nov 2, 2021 16:52 |
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Aopeth posted:Nevermind. nah gently caress that, what's going on fam talk to us
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# ¿ Jun 13, 2022 08:08 |
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UCS Hellmaker posted:Hey I know I'm not a regular, but I want to say, the thread title is true and 100% correct. Talk to me bud, because I get the feeling this wasn't just a loving ringing endorsement of a thread title. What's happening friend?
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# ¿ Feb 25, 2023 12:53 |
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LtCol J. Krusinski posted:If there’s one place on earth you can let it out, it’s here, brother.
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# ¿ Feb 25, 2023 15:24 |
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UCS Hellmaker posted:Short and sweet my trans friend killed herself last Friday likely due to her severe gender dysphoria and getting news that they were going to deny or delay her transition surgery which would have made her wait at least another year to schedule. She was an amazing girl that was smart sweet and had a family that adored and was supportive, just couldn't handle her life in her body when she kept getting delays and her anxiety was so bad she couldn't even look in the mirror or feel comfortable being seen out in public. I remember one time I was on my way to a party, and I got word from a phone call that a trans friend of mine who was dear to me had killed herself. And I was in loving tears the whole drive there. I didn't even stay that long, I just figured I should at least get to where I was going instead of turning around and going home. You didn't have anything to do with it. The motherfuckers who hosed with her future pushed her over the edge. You were a good friend, sounds like you were more than just a good friend but a confidant as well. I know what you're thinking, because I thought it too, "if I just did x or was more present in y way this wouldn't have happened." I promise you, it wouldn't have changed poo poo. She made her choice, just like my friend rean did. Just like my friend zoë (not trans but similar situation, lifelong severe chronic pain). Nothing could have stopped them once they began to execute that plan. Her struggle is over now, at least she is at peace. That's the only thing that can be said here. It's the rest of us who have to figure out how to deal with it now. That's the worst part about this poo poo. We're all collateral damage when something like this happens. There's more I'd love to say, about the insurance companies, healthcare, and loving America, but I don't think it's indicated now. You know what it is, I know what it is. gently caress em for this poo poo is all I can say. I'm empathetic as hell, and I'm extremely sorry for your loss and your pain. Take care of yourself, friend. Slide into the DMs if you want or keep posting here. Whatever you need to do. We're here for you.
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# ¿ Feb 26, 2023 13:23 |
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Hi, currently in crisis as of last Thursday. Stable but holding on with a white knuckled grip and trying not to spin out further. Dealing with a bit of libel and defamation rn on campus and would like to talk to someone who is also a Nontraditional student veteran like myself on this. I don’t want sympathy, I don’t want sunshine, I just need to know how to navigate this social space so I don’t suffer another social death, like I did a few years ago with the GiP discord group, getting terminated with extreme prejudice for being a weapons-grade autist, not a normal one apparently. Though I’m gonna guess that the fault was with them too, having heard of some of the poo poo they’ve pulled as of late. gently caress y’all btw. Anyway yeah, I’m at the point rn where I’m getting appointments mixed up on campus and I have no clue wtf I’m doing except that I’m stuck in survive and fight mode. Putting up the flare. Please send help. Thank you.
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# ¿ Mar 28, 2023 19:55 |
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Hekk posted:Checking in to let you know that I see your request and am reaching out to people. I don’t think I can offer more than a non judgmental place to vent but I am checking to see if there are others that can better help. Thank you partner.
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# ¿ Mar 28, 2023 20:13 |
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Bored As gently caress posted:Dealing with falling outs with social circles loving sucks, man. I've been there for sure. I know you don't want my sympathy, but you have it. And I understand how hard it is and how much it hurts. I appreciate it friend. I really do. Talked to shim just now, he schooled me. Another bro is in the DMs, imma hit him up tonight with THE DM. And Windshipper is calling me up in an hour+ or so. Screaming a little bit less internally. Really appreciate the assists y’all. Thank you for what y’all do for each other, but esp how y’all are helping me rn. Thank you. E: talked to Windshipper. Feeling quite a bit better and understanding my situation more. Going to sleep. Will dm the other bro in the afternoon. Thanks again friends. TheWeedNumber fucked around with this message at 00:08 on Mar 29, 2023 |
# ¿ Mar 28, 2023 22:17 |
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windshipper posted:Glad to hear I could help, brother. Take care and even if you subconsciously feel unnerved, know that you’ve got this and can handle it. You’ll be ok. All of this is true. Confirmed.
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# ¿ Mar 29, 2023 13:12 |
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Posting to report that I think I'm stable stable again. MH team and support network should be able to handle me from here on out. Thanks for having my back friends. Be well.
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# ¿ Mar 30, 2023 22:49 |
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Talktopus posted:Hi guys. Maybe he needs to share it. But I am not sure this particular thing is something he shares with you. Connecting him with another veteran is the step needed. I question why you would need to "fire" a sponsee because they don't want to tell you about the horrific things they've seen, that you cannot possibly relate to. I have never seen combat but the Navy and Marine Corps still trained me to be a loving killer and, at heart, that what I am. I just missed the part where I popped my cherry. But the desensitization, the operant and classical conditioning imposed on me to prepare me as a combat medic to fight alongside Marines, that's still imprinted firmly on this autistic veteran's mind. Now imagine someone whose training was completed and actually had to kill or be killed, or see the horrors of war. The Vietnam-era Combat Veteran is the one who is going to reach him on this if he is to be reached. It ain't gonna be you. But it might be you who abandons him if he can't make the leap in as timely a fashion as the 12 steps calls for. Because neither you nor the people who came up with the 12 steps get it. You simply can't. You weren't there. I don't think you're an rear end in a top hat by the way, not yet anyway. I know for a fact you mean well. You posted up in here and you're asking us for our thoughts. This is my take on it. However, if you turn your back on him, though it may mean nothing to you cause this is the internet, know that I will never forgive you for that poo poo. You wanna help him? Get him plugged in with other veterans, maybe a sponsor swap is needed. But there's a difference between transfer of care and "firing" and that's the part that I don't like at all. At Sierra Tucson, when I was there for my depression, we had a veterans program there. The VA will pay for him to do 45-60 days at Sierra Tucson and its not half bad at all. Three hots and a cot, a veterans program, EMDR, group and individual therapy, all free. That's an option you maybe didn't know about. Maybe he can do the 4th step through them. They got AA up there too. In certain meetings, blocked off to everyone but veterans, I heard the realest poo poo I have ever heard. Dude needs a safe space if he's gonna talk about the war or his moral injury. He may love and respect you but it might not be enough for him to make that jump. At least in that room, filled with other vets, he knows he's safe. Things I've heard (Trigger Warning from here on out for suicide, child abuse, death. Spoilers for the crowd) A veteran talk about trying to kill themselves, with a failure to fire on TWO separate pistols. Same veteran talked about an IED attack his unit suffered that he never got over. Because he wasn't sure if the motorcycle he and his guys saw driving away from the blast were the guys who hit them in the first place. In the same meeting, another veteran (a corpsman) stated that he would have "killed him, and everyone around them after the attack." I have no judgement on either perspective. I mention this only to state that, in that space, things that ordinarily wouldn't have been said or expressed, could exist and be said. A veteran I had particular love and respect for couldn't speak on his poo poo. But he did express himself enough, choked up with tears, that I know he was trying. I spoke about being molested as a child (like my literal first memory of life is this) and wondering if that hardwired me to want to fight and enlist in the first place. I worried about being some sort of loving psycho because I couldn't let go of wanting to go to combat. I only include this one to make a point: what you can talk about, other's may not be able to. Another veteran expressed their anger at children killed by the Taliban. I forget the circumstances. I don't know if its because the Taliban started firefights in which those kids were exposed to combat and subsequent death, or if they were deliberately targeted. I legit can't remember. All I remember is this loveable dude outside the room being full of rage and disgust inside the room. That's a snapshot. Stories like the above or worse are getting told in that Sierra Tucson room all the loving time. They are being told nation-wide, worldwide. There's a time and place for everything. Get him to the place he needs to be, around the people he needs to be, so he can finally make that breakthrough. You took him through steps one to three right? Step four may not be meant for you. But you weren't born to save him anyway; you're here to help him save himself. TheWeedNumber fucked around with this message at 14:47 on May 23, 2023 |
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updated my post with additional details so its not missed.
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# ¿ May 23, 2023 14:42 |
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LtCol J. Krusinski posted:Yooooooo 🚩 alert 🚩 alert 🚩 dang it Bobby what did we say about working on our reading comprehension skills in class. to wit: the vet is in their 50s. They did not serve in Vietnam and no one said they did.
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# ¿ May 23, 2023 19:55 |
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Crazyman69 posted:Tried to PM you but I can't figure out how. Can you send me a slack invite? PM me and I'll send you my email unless you want me to post it here. 646-228-5925 i can relate to being severely depressed. I never attempted but I've really really thought about this poo poo at times. I've been in rooms where vets have talked about their attempts (no names ofc). That sounds a lil hosed up on the psychiatrist end because they are supposed to do callbacks in emergencies. Nevertheless, I got you. Ring me whenever you want. If its monday-thursday I have class from 10am-12:25pm US EST, however I doubt it'll take you that long to contact me. You ain't letting life down fam. Life is just life. Its a cruel uncaring mother at times but it is what we make of it. Stanley Kubrick said "The most terrifying fact about the universe is not that it is hostile but that it is indifferent, but if we can come to terms with this indifference, then our existence as a species can have genuine meaning. However vast the darkness, we must supply our own light." Its a bit harsh, but there is no lie in it. We gotta supply our own light. That said fighting all your life is loving exhausting and there is no shame in being down. let a former corpsman get you back on your feet. bang my line fam.
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# ¿ Jun 10, 2023 20:26 |
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Hekk posted:We have a discord server. Shoot me a PM and I will invite you if you are looking for more real time conversations. he ain't got PMs hekk, gotta post that link in the clear
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# ¿ Jun 10, 2023 20:30 |
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whoever is behind this needs to chill out. I have my suspicions of who it is but just incase i got the wrong one, let me address the bullshit today whoever is so hurt by whatever I did in the past on that discord needs to go talk to their therapist. Get help. You have pushed beyond the pale into harassment and discrimination of an autistic person. It's not cool, it's actually kinda insane. TheWeedNumber fucked around with this message at 16:00 on Jun 30, 2023 |
# ¿ Jun 30, 2023 15:55 |
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Mustang posted:Jesus, that's pretty insane, I had no idea anyone had any beer with you but I'm not active on the discord. I've done people really wrong bro. I've been incredibly hosed up to people who have been nothing but good to me in the past over petty bullshit. And then there's the crowd who knows me from eve and had fun pushing my buttons to see me implode/smolder in rage. Regardless lets sort you out. I relied on school counseling services in the past to find my therapist. If we're talking skipping out on the VA/vet centers which, tbqh, can be a decent idea here are a potential avenues to search for one. 1. simply googling "Therapists/Psychologists near (insert zip here) should get you a bunch of websites. 2. Check out some of the lists here https://www.zocdoc.com/ https://www.goodtherapy.org/therapists/ny/queens https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists/ny/queens-county https://doctor.webmd.com/ https://mentaltherapy.io/ https://www.findatopdoc.com/ all of the above seem like a start 3. Can you go back to your last institution and talk to their mental health department/social worker? The reason I say that is because, at least at Columbia University, they had a list of people they worked with who were vetted as competent. Vetted doesn't mean perfect fit as I had a psychologist who thought I had oppositional defiance disorder and the way she viewed me/treated me was really heavily based on her training as a behavioralist. Like she saw some things but that was a misdiagnose because no one else has called it. And I had a doctor who specialized in anxiety who thought that was what was driving me. Do not expect the civilians to be the magic bullet to curing what ails you. Like all docs, it takes work to find the fit. However I found the private care side of things to be more empathetic and understanding on average than the VA or military medicine side of things. idk if it means anything but I'll throw a prayer up for you tomorrow when I go to the synaoguge. Take care of yourself fam.
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# ¿ Jun 30, 2023 16:34 |
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Mustang posted:Well, found a therapist that I was impressed with from her page and scheduled a free consultation next week, that was easy enough. lets goooooooooooooooooooo
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# ¿ May 9, 2024 04:46 |
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is this a thing the white house hotline can do anything about? Like I normally would be like call them for when the VA or a government agency is being a poo poo but yeah...idk.feverish and oversexed posted:I'm going to want advice on what to do if I'm digging my heels in. I am not removing anything. If you don't have advice to that effort, then I don't want it? (I am looking and have people looking thank you) fight them fam but take care of yourself too. smdh what the gently caress I HAVE WATER OUT, WORST CRIME IN THE WORLD LOL
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