Deep Thought posted:

Let me get this straight: You decided to use 25k from a meth lab start-up to get a 25k drug counseling diploma and become a casework manager. You figured the nitty gritty experience of the drug world would give you a critical edge above the competition as you climbed the management ladder on the solution side of it. It didn't make you uneasy because you told yourself that you were doing it to fix problems (specifically the ones you started by producing meth) and that it'd be better work than remaining a meth lab guy; a gig you had taken out of desperation over the lack of med chemistry jobs in the West Coast; which had been your plan A. As your plan B came together, the irony underlying your advantage started to feel like a heavy weight, one which you were struggling to conceal, because by then it started to feel like a testament to a duplicitous genius. That is why you posted this thread. You could no longer hide the duping delight that you are the sickness and the cure. Is that about the long and short of it?