Turtlicious posted:

im better now, I'm calling my therapist's office to set up an appointment.

I'm sorry, I just wanted to do something nice before I go. I didn't mean to turn this into a whole thing, I've just been so lonely and trying so hard to connect with people but it's so hard being around me when I'm in a mood, and I didn't realize that until like 2 months ago. I went back to a bunch of different gaming groups and some new ones trying to find a place to fit in and I couldn't, so I thought if I did something big and showy. I would feel better, and I always had this idea but I've never had the funds to do it, because it's so hard to keep a job when you're constantly paranoid everyone around you is trying to get you fired. Everyone on this site is really nice, Winter is hard for me but especially December.

I just want a Mom, a Dad, and to not feel lonely anymore. I didn't mean to cause so much trouble.