Shima Honnou posted:

As far back as I can remember into childhood, even before I was school age, I've had issues falling asleep and staying asleep at night. I went through most of school on somewhere between 2 and 4 hours of sleep a day because it usually took me until 4 or 5 am to fall asleep, which resulted in me spending a lot of my class time getting poo poo done as fast as possible so I could spend the rest of the hour sleeping at my desk, though I have also fallen asleep in the hallways etc. I pretty much can't quiet my mind no matter how much I try poo poo like meditation or various "the military totally swears by it!" sleep bullshit so that's probably related. It's extreme enough that even going 24 hours or longer without sleep then trying to sleep at night doesn't really make a difference, I either will be unable to sleep despite being incredibly tired, or I'll get an hour or two and wake up feeling normal. It doesn't really matter how tired I am standing up or sitting down, once I lie down that stops immediately.

For whatever reason, if I go to sleep at or near dawn I sleep better, possibly related to the light, and usually end up getting between 4 to 6 hours, though as with Gunshow Poophole I never really feel that refreshed feeling people say is supposed to happen so sleep just kinda feels like a chore that I hate having to do since regardless if it's actual sleep or a nap I still feel drained once I wake up, so it just ultimately feels like a literal waste of time.

Never done a sleep study, though I have tried sleeping medication (doesn't help). Never had insurance that covers a study nor spare money to pay for it, I pretty much just accept it as a fact of life for myself and approach anything other people have to say about how easy or great sleep is with extreme suspicion. Mostly I just tailor my life around a fairly solitary nocturnal schedule and that allows me to sleep in what I can only assume is my natural, day-sleep pattern without torturing myself trying and failing to sleep a night pattern.