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It's pretty damned close. Whichever psychologist/philosopher first discussed wearing masks in everything we do in life, can get bent, even though it's true. I've been trying to figure out all the different masks I wear and stop doing so. But it's really tough in situations. Like in a job interview, are you supposed to just, be your true self (whatever the eff that is?), or sell yourself? I try to push myself to be as close as possible to that self, but it seems like we're always selling ourselves to others. I get damned close to the real me these days in everything I do, consequences-be-damned. I've lost several jobs back-to-back because I speak to bosses like I would a person in any other position, and some of them expect you to "respect the position" which just, lol. Like my current boss, the sous chef, was poking fun at a coworker for being short (he's neighbors with her IRL and has known her for years), and even though it was my first time working with the chef and my first day, I went ahead and joked just as I would with a long-time friend. Him to her: I don't know how short people can survive in life, etc. yuck yuck yuck. A big, smug smile on his face. (and it was all in good humor). Me to him: I'm just trying to figure out how you can fit in this kitchen with an ego that big. The whole kitchen went quiet, and then the chef just started laughing, "you'll fit right in." I mean, I guess I've just gotten to the place where I don't care if I don't? If I don't fit in, I'll move on. It's not my place to please everyone. BYOB is the closest I've ever been able to get to being "myself" online. But even that can change. I tend to view interactions I have as life experiences and levels that I can either pass or fail. For better or worse. I've never properly felt like I've "fit-in" with any group in life. My friends groups are always changing. It's usually me leaving them and finding others. Which sucks because I want a group that I feel comfortable with, but I've never fully found that. Again, byob is pretty close, but the reality is I don't even feel I properly fit in here. I'm just a scramble of brains and probably set up expectations that can never be reached by others. Viginti Septem fucked around with this message at 22:25 on May 9, 2022 https://i.imgur.com/9jTkSUL.mp4 |
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As a kid who grew up with Ocarina of Time, I view everything as... small, vessel flute instruments?
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Heather Papps posted:things are frequently a matter of (air) pressure and placement yes cruft posted:As a kid who grew up in Ocarina of Time, same. Like the scene in Beetlejuice in Juno's office with the football players realizing that they don't think they survived the bus crash, I'm suddenly not so confident that I ever made it out of the Lost Woods. 
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My jokes are supposed to be funny?
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