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OFFICER 13 INCH posted:it's time to make sure I shake a little chaos into my life BITURBO BITURBO BITURBO BITURBO BITURBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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In all seriousness im freaking the gently caress out that i made a terrible mistake and there isnt anythng anyone could do or say right now that will convince me otherwise but I really dont know what to do with myself because nothing is working
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Nov 16, 2014 07:04
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OFFICER 13 INCH posted:There's really not a whole lot to do for me other than find me something even worse for me to waste my time in because I'm not sure if you notice but I really only seem to be happy when I'm suffering. It's why I moved to Seattle. It's why I went back to Firestone. It's why I lasted nearly a year with a person who couldn't even go to the store with me, or eat a meal with me. Or watch a sunset with me. It looks like you're in between the Bargaining and Depression steps for the 5 stages of loss. Fortunately, the next step is acceptance. Talk to a therapist about all this poo poo, man. It really just helps to get it all out there and talk to a professional that can help you sort out all of this poo poo that is raging through your head. I was a goddamn mess for the better part of two years because I couldn't accept that there was no other way for my marriage to end but divorce. I fought like hell trying to prove I was good enough to her, only to be told that I wasn't every single time. She distanced herself emotionally and treated me like poo poo for months, trying to force me to be the one to quit on the marriage, even though she quit mentally a long time ago. My therapist helped back me down from the edge, but he couldn't tell me whether I should leave or not. I had to be the one to decide that. It took a couple of key events (officiating that wedding, reconnecting with a great friend I never should have lost touch with) to help me realize that I couldn't go back to that. Now that I've finally cut those ties for good, I feel better than I have in years. I'm still a mess, but my self-worth isn't tied to someone who clearly felt I wasn't worth a drat. I know it doesn't seem like it, but that sounds like a toxic, miserable relationship that was pretty much a one-way street. You gave and gave while she just took and took. You deserve better than that. You seem like a pretty awesome dude and you don't need to put up with that poo poo. Just wash your hands of her and call it a lesson from the school of relationship hard knocks. bandman fucked around with this message at 07:09 on Nov 16, 2014 |
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Nov 16, 2014 07:06
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Note to self: if the need to scream just to hear something other than the silence make sure its into a pillow or the neihbors pound on te door to see if you need help
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Nov 16, 2014 07:17
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Liquid Communism posted:People'd love to look up. If we hadn't essentially choked NASA to death for the last 20 years they might even have something to look at. What I love to hate about this: NASA's budget: like, 20 billion on a good year The entire budget: 3.5 trillion Yet all the assfucks in washington DC decide to cut NASA's budget by a couple billion to solve a deficit. This is approximately useless as a budgeting method. 14, stay the course. She said that you needed to take a break AFTER doing the deed, twice, to try and escape her guilty conscience. There is no reason to ever trust someone after that kind of misjudgement IMO and it is time to sever. I seem to end up with hopeless basket cases, whether it be houses, cars, or dating, and there's no way I would go back on the decision you made, you chose rightly and are morally in the right as well, no matter what her hosed up worldview thinks of the matter. And there are plenty of other possibly damaged fish in the sea... maybe you can find one that owns a biturbo. Raluek posted:Enlist the help of Kastein and his 5-ton, go "collect" her. Like the story about the datsun carburetors. It is currently in basket case mode, like everything else in my life  Semi related: the ex and I have determined that things simply aren't going to work, we have entirely different life goals at this point. Still good friends with a lot of common interests though, so everything worked out better than expected.
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Nov 16, 2014 07:29
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OFFICER 13 INCH posted:Note to self: if the need to scream just to hear something other than the silence make sure its into a pillow or the neihbors pound on te door to see if you need help The answer to this, by the way, seems to be "yes."
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Nov 16, 2014 07:44
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OFFICER 13 INCH posted:Listen I get that its a terrible idea that will only end in tears. i feel that Maybe you've been really hard on her. You have to remember where she is right now. I bet going through a recovery program is really difficult. Lots of emotions and even physical changes can be overwhelming. Tell her you didn't consider that and you've thought it over but she needs to understand why you reacted the way you did.
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Nov 16, 2014 08:14
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OFFICER 13 INCH posted:In all seriousness im freaking the gently caress out that i made a terrible mistake and there isnt anythng anyone could do or say right now that will convince me otherwise but I really dont know what to do with myself because nothing is working The answer you seek is: time.
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Nov 16, 2014 08:18
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OFFICER 13 INCH posted:i made a terrible mistake She made the motherfucking mistake. I'm so sorry bro. I know it doesn't help much but my ex did the same thing. I forgave her two times, people who test fail over and over. Third time I finally learned - you have the chance to learn on the first time. That's all I can tell you. What I said to my ex when she wanted to test our love by loving another guy was: "you can do whatever you want but if you touch another man our marriage is over". And she was mad like I was being unreasonable. Jesus gently caress dude wake up and smell the betrayal. Stay strong. Taste the pain. On a more personal note, I'm drunk and feeling nihilistic too, and for shits I decided to see if feeling something would make me feel alive again. So I went outside barefoot in 4° with 2 inches of snow on the ground and almost slipped and fell on my rear end. Shoes have an amazing amount of traction, that or I have a slime layer on my feet because loving hell. I felt alive for a minute, then cold. All in all I have much less to complain about than most of you youngn's. I do remember being young and feeling things that hard, I don't know if it's age or cynicism but I just don't feel deeply like that anymore. And I am thankful and miss it at the same time.
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Nov 16, 2014 08:26
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13 you have to give it time man. Everybody goes through the same poo poo, I felt the same way at the same point as you, and a few months later I was like WHAT THE gently caress WAS I THINKING IM AN IDIOT. Give it a reasonable amount of time (at least a couple months) to digest and THEN see how you feel about it. Also seek therapy it does wonders for putting things into perspective.
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Nov 16, 2014 08:44
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I understand its part of the process. I've been through it before but never this bad. Never this deep. But i have always been a survivor whn it comes to making it through pain so deep you think its going to kill you, but I know it wont because it's in my mind and not my body. Id just like to say in case anyone was getting worried, i am not in any way a danger to myself. Ive got avenues for help in person but Ive spent so long isolating from society over this that you guys here actually know more about the history of things than nearly every person i know in real life. I'm breaking down hard but this will pass. Sorry for making GBS threads up the thread so much the past couple days but its kinda sad that the people I feel safest talking to about some things are people Ive never met before. And I know the worst is yet to come by a long shot. The day all her stuff gets picked up and im left with a tv a blanket and a cat more or less because I threw everything else out because she wanted to furnish pretty much the entire place with her stuff. That'll be a bad day.
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So my doctor increased my Celexa dosage during my last visit. I'm on a low dose of Celexa for anxiety, not depression, but she still wanted to bump it to 20mg. My sex drive is completely gone since then. Like, no desire to even look at porn. I tried last night, and went "meh" after a couple of minutes. I'm already frustrated by it. The hormones are there, they're telling my brain "hey dude you need some kind of outlet, go whack off or something damnit!", but the rest of my body is just  . I'd probably need Viagra just to even attempt to crank out some knuckle babies (and I don't think it'd be successful).Car was running coolish all day again (OBD2 data showed the neighborhood of ~160F most of the time - warm enough to go into closed loop, so it wasn't rich as poo poo at least).. then the temp gauge spiked up to a bit over 1/2 on the way home from work, then settled down to where it normally sits (just under 1/2 - which is about 185F). It was so loving nice to have heat, but I don't trust this thermostat one bit. Wally Joyner posted:Took a bunch of LSD today and, after all was said in done, appeared naked before my roommate and declared myself clean and ready for final judgement.  I haven't done LSD in over 10 years. Swore I'd never do it again, I fried myself pretty good for awhile by doing it 2-3x a week for a few years. I've done similar after taking Ambien. I remember taking one (this was a full bottle), dozing off.. then waking up the next day feeling like hell and finding an empty Ambien bottle on the ground, with a few pills around it. Walk out of my room, my roommates are looking at me funny.. "hey did you guys borrow any of my Ambien?"  You don't remember last night do you ... crap. What'd I do? You were wandering around the house naked looking for low voltage wire, and also looking for your car keys and wanting to go out. We had to hide your keys from you.The last time I did shrooms I had total ego loss, right up to forgetting where I was, what year it was, etc. And pissed in my garbage can. goatse guy posted:I just went to get a quote on snow tires and steel wheels from our service department. It was $833 after employee cost. I think someone in the service department is huffing brake cleaner because there's no way it should be that much. When I had the power steering recall done on my car, I asked the service advisor how much it would be do to a drain/fill on my manual gearbox. "$180" Why so much? "We have to flush it with a special machine" You did catch the part about it being a manual, right? There's a drain plug, and a fill plug. There's nowhere to hook a flush machine up to. It doesn't even hold two quarts of fluid. You drain it, you fill it, it's just a pain to get to the drain plug without a specific tool.  Even the quick lube places want a small fortune to do it, and half of them still say it needs to be flushed  . I just need a drat allen wrench that's had the short end cut WAY down to get the drain plug out. It's 10-15 minutes of work total, plus 1.8 quarts of ATF.Fucknag posted:My 03 Protege is now the oldest car in the family fleet. I'm unemployed so I depends on her graces for parts for my car at the moment, and she's holding some stuff I need to get done hostage wallet-wise until I get her old Lexus sold, for no less than the KBB good condition value price of $13k. This on a car that My 06 Saturn is the newest (we also have an 01 F-150 and an 03 Avalon), but I'm quickly catching up to both of them in mileage (I'm at 105k, the others are around 130-140k). Mom's actually unemployed aside from some stuff she makes for interior design, so I've been helping her out (car maint, groceries, and now that the bankruptcy is done and over, in 90 days I'll add her as an authorized user on my credit cards to help rebuild her credit). The Avalon is starting to show its age. I'd still depend on it for a cross country trip without a second thought, but it needs motor mounts pretty bad, and I need to finish replacing the rest of the vacuum lines on it. It needs the overall 100-120k service done - the belt looks a little rough, hoses are starting to look a little brittle. Has several leaks that need attention, but none are major. Might leave a drop or two of oil and power steering fluid on the ground overnight - the PS is the rack, but it's been leaking since 2005 or 2006 and hasn't gotten any worse. Just have to top off the fluid every 6 months or so. randomidiot fucked around with this message at 10:19 on Nov 16, 2014 |
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In my antiquing today, I happened upon an interesting device. What is this? Some midevil form of torture device? Well, Kinda...  It's a Napa BALKAMP Battery tester (with built in heater (as load) - note the folded metal that hops directly between the two probes. The handles are made of wood, and this is about as unsafe as, well, anything). The reason it has that thinner gauge wire and newschool connectors is because the old wire was irreparable, and I wanted to test it. Works fine. Heats up pretty drat quick, too. May just bundle it with the original wire and poorly-soldered connections.
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Nov 16, 2014 10:55
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13" please go gently caress something. Get over this little blip and buy a stupid car so I, and doubtless many AI posters with families, can live through your exploits. I say by an old merc. 500 sl in White with red leather interior should do it 
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Nov 16, 2014 11:17
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thegasman2000 posted:13" please go gently caress something. I think the Civic's exhaust might be a little ... small.
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Nov 16, 2014 11:27
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some texas redneck posted:I think the Civic's exhaust might be a little ... small. Countdown to OFFICER 12 INCH.
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Horse Divorce posted:Only if you promise to apply liberal air horn usage toward illigal u-turners. Trust me, if I did get it, I'd move everything from the beetle over, including the air horn.
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Nov 16, 2014 13:01
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kastein posted:What I love to hate about this:
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Nov 16, 2014 14:45
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My e-BFF is even better IRL. We ended up meeting up with a few of our other friends over the course of the evening and it was nice to actually hang out with a bunch of chicks instead of car guys.
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Nov 16, 2014 15:31
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kastein posted:What I love to hate about this: My brother-in-law's father is head of finance for NASA. Last few years have been tough for him.
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Nov 16, 2014 15:58
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Don't worry there's plenty of money to blow up America's boogey man.
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Nov 16, 2014 17:13
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iwentdoodie posted:I'm just sick of it being dark at 1730. Straight up loving depressing. I work third shift. Outside the weekends, I don't even see the sun anymore. :\ Get up in the dark, come home in the dark.
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Nov 16, 2014 17:30
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 Good enough for now. Gotta get some rubber from Dome Depot to screw into the bottom of the bar cart so the ping pong balls stop rolling under it. Also gotta stock it with enough bottles so that we don't drink it all that day. Super Aggro Crag fucked around with this message at 17:35 on Nov 16, 2014 |
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Nov 16, 2014 17:33
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InitialDave posted:People both like to think that spacetech is really expensive, but comparatively, it's not. The example I use is that the entire Apollo program, if you adjust for inflation, cost about the same as one year of our NHS. I just like to remind people that our bank bailout would have paid for NASA's entire history, every launch, every ship, every astronaut, all those jobs. We gave all that money to banks because they made mistakes they knew were wrong. And they just sat on it. At least NASA actually delivers when we give them money 
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thegasman2000 posted:13" please go gently caress something. Get over this little blip and buy a stupid car so I, and doubtless many AI posters with families, can live through your exploits. I'll get right on that after I eat something cause I just remembered I havent since like Thursday morning. Findin someone to gently caress should be easy
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CommieGIR posted:I just like to remind people that our bank bailout would have paid for NASA's entire history, every launch, every ship, every astronaut, all those jobs. Come on, meteor.  e; I have not been able to breathe for days. My sinuses have completely closed up. I hate this loving house so much. So, so much. Terrible Robot fucked around with this message at 18:07 on Nov 16, 2014 |
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Nov 16, 2014 18:00
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OFFICER 13 INCH posted:There's really not a whole lot to do for me other than find me something even worse for me to waste my time in because I'm not sure if you notice but I really only seem to be happy when I'm suffering. It's why I moved to Seattle. It's why I went back to Firestone. It's why I lasted nearly a year with a person who couldn't even go to the store with me, or eat a meal with me. Or watch a sunset with me. Dude, might as well be punching yourself in the dick. It won't last as long, but at least you can quit when you realize it sucks without feeling guilty about anyone else. kastein posted:What I love to hate about this: Don't forget the DoD's $700 billion budget as well. gently caress, LockMart's horrible failure of an F35 program alone is a significant fraction of NASA's budget.
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Well gently caress. This used to be a miata's trunk. Now i'm in a REALLY lovely mood.
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Terrible Robot posted:e; I have not been able to breathe for days. My sinuses have completely closed up. Are you mainlining pseudoephedrine yet? I had a bit of an allergy attack of some sort yesterday, popped 2 pseudos and 2 diphenhydramine and I was cleared up in like 20 minutes. However the ephedrine will make your teeth itch.
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meltie posted:Well gently caress. This used to be a miata's trunk. Now i'm in a REALLY lovely mood. RIP Miata. Sorry if you liked it but that's a whooole lotta expensive fab work to repair.
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Beach Bum posted:Are you mainlining pseudoephedrine yet? I had a bit of an allergy attack of some sort yesterday, popped 2 pseudos and 2 diphenhydramine and I was cleared up in like 20 minutes. However the ephedrine will make your teeth itch. Sudafed and Benadryl daily regiment (tm). Works great when cleaning, visiting homes with pets, or digging through mounds of poo poo trying to unearth a bit of ancient awesome.
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meltie posted:Well gently caress. This used to be a miata's trunk. Now i'm in a REALLY lovely mood. Sorry for your gain. Looks like it's time for it to become an Exocet. http://www.mevltd.co.uk/exocet_gallery.htm Cheaper than fixing it, I bet: http://www.mevltd.co.uk/exocet_price.htm
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Beach Bum posted:Are you mainlining pseudoephedrine yet? I had a bit of an allergy attack of some sort yesterday, popped 2 pseudos and 2 diphenhydramine and I was cleared up in like 20 minutes. However the ephedrine will make your teeth itch. Pretty sure my house has a black mold issue. One day it will literally kill me. Can't afford to move out, can't afford to fix the problem, batfuck insane landlord will probably kick me out if I press the issue.
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Nov 16, 2014 18:25
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Ugh, November 15th. Not allowed to park in the street overnight anymore. This means figuring out the night before whos leaving when in the morning, and if your plans change you get to move 3 other cars out of the driveway so that you can leave.
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 Yards charged me $2 for a pair of trans lines that almost burnt the car to the ground. I go back this morning, they charged me $25. they're $21 new. I left em a bigass puddle of oil, and a 50' streak of rubber testing the forward clutches on the way out, gently caress you bastards you're getting no more money from me. I hope they saw that burnout, because gently caress you genuinely, PAP NLV.
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gently caress them. FYI - No need for the "snow" terrain response. The pig weighs enough it just mushes it all down.
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drat it, one of my best friends was in town last night and I forgot and just played video games until I crashed and now I feel like a jerk.
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Crossposted because the snowpacalyps is coming: Today in meatpimp's lessons, I show you how to take a nice looking BMW and make it look like a taxi in one easy step. First, start out with a nice looking E39 on M-pars:  Then, just add the factory wheels with Winter tires:  VOILA! Taxi. Honestly, though, these are both stock sizes of tires for an E39:  265/40-18 on the left and 215/60-16 on the right. What a difference. 
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God drat meatpimp, that is still one of the cleanest E39s I have seen. The only problem with it is its lacking the V8.
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BrokenKnucklez posted:God drat meatpimp, that is still one of the cleanest E39s I have seen. The only problem with it is its lacking the V8. Agreed, but the good thing is that the lack of V8 isn't going to matter for 5 months... I was spinning the monstrous rear tires with just the 6 as soon as it turned cold (the motor seems to really like the cooler weather, it wasn't close to spinning them during the summer). Either way, these narrow Winter tires would be shredded with a V8, so again
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