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NAMI training today. Asked presenters for horror stories, got back that a priest at a faith presentation once got up and started ranting about how the mentally ill needed exercisms also a corporate event where two extremely large gentlemen got up in her face afterwards and asked point blank if she was a Jew good times
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May 19, 2019 17:54
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lol this owns... my landlord says he's planning to evict me but not before trying to take me to court over bs property damage claims he's actually just a lazy racist slumlord bitch who doesn't comply with any of his obligations and i'm going to document everything with pics/video (including the roaches that moved into my unit from a particularly disgusting neighbor) and hopefully countersue his rear end, or at least get everything thrown out someday all landlords must face the maoist treatment but since that isn't happening atm i'm at least gonna make this the most painful landlording experience he's ever had. if nothing else he's required by the city to call an actual exterminator for all the roach-affected units bc i'm not going fuckin anywhere if there might be roaches or their eggs hiding in my poo poo, and neither should any of the other tenants gotta admit it's still stressful though, i still have my job, and i could live in my car if i HAD to for a while...  just kinda ~oscillating~ between righteous fury about how i'm going to brutally own him in court, and anxiety about "poo poo, what if i don't win" and sadness that i'll likely have to move away from a neighborhood i've lived in for 10 years (and finally made friends with some cool stoner neighbors)
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May 19, 2019 17:59
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not feeling great
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May 19, 2019 23:47
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PsychedelicWarlord posted:not feeling great hang in there
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May 20, 2019 01:36
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got any sevens posted:a good drinking buddy though I kind of find that more helpful than professional therapy stuff but yeah dunno
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May 20, 2019 08:13
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AceOfFlames posted:I once said to my therapist "the world is going to hell and I am just waiting until my parents die so I can kill myself". Her reply? A dead-eyed "So why are you even in therapy?" Therapists love to put the onus on the patient like dude and/or lady if I knew how or was able to figure out or fix this by myself then I would not need to be here.
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May 20, 2019 11:22
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Good news: got an interview with a big company, thanks to my dad working there. Bad news: the company is a big defense company and arms trader to the military. Needless to say, I'm morally opposed to this, but my other job prospects are virtually nonexistent. Really not in the mood to have my beliefs tested right now lol.
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May 20, 2019 13:52
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I know that feeling, it's not as egregious as defense but I work for a company that is directly responsible for automating away jobs, I've watched it happen. I feel mixed but I also need an income.
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May 20, 2019 13:57
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Addamere posted:Therapists love to put the onus on the patient like dude and/or lady if I knew how or was able to figure out or fix this by myself then I would not need to be here. yeah I've been asked a bunch of times "what needs to change for things to change" and my response is always a variation of "not having depression/anxiety anymore."
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May 20, 2019 14:08
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Ive been struggling with depression and ADD pretty much my whole adult life (ADD since I was a kid) and luckily I started seeing a therapist recently and have been on medication for about 6 months now. I still have hardly any energy for things though. I work customer service for an electric utility and its just the most draining thing ever. I cant even bother to change my horribly outdated Obama avatar on here that Ive had since 2008 so I always feel embarrassed to post here. If suicide resulted in a respawn or reincarnation where I just start all over again and make better choices growing up (like not majoring in loving history without double majoring in something marketable) I would have done so already. But it doesnt, so no suicide for me!
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May 20, 2019 14:28
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Equeen posted:Good news: got an interview with a big company, thanks to my dad working there. Bad news: the company is a big defense company and arms trader to the military. I have moral issues with my job cause I do computer touching for the PD that killed Philando. But it's the only job willing to pay me 50k and my moral argument is that "well if keep the body cams working maybe some justice at some point will be served"
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May 20, 2019 14:44
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May 20, 2019 15:05
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it also doesnt help my mental health to regularly get calls from people whose power got shut off due to non payment and being able to do little to nothing to actually help them after hearing their stories besides point them in the direction of woefully underfunded assistance programs. my favorite calls though are when I get to tell millionaire developers that no, I cant just turn off the power at one of their 30 properties that has squatters because they put it in their own name and we dont care if they are there legally or not.
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May 20, 2019 15:18
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Finished my NAMI training and am a certified presenter.  Once I pay dues, I can start signing up for presentations.100 HOGS AGREE posted:I know that feeling, it's not as egregious as defense but I work for a company that is directly responsible for automating away jobs, I've watched it happen. I feel mixed but I also need an income. You have to take care of yourself at some point. We're still forced to live with capitalism, and you can't fight the machine if you're broke and dead. (At least, that's how I justify it. Then again, I worked at a bank for two years that enabled payday loans, and no amount of showers in the world make me feel better about that.) You're not wedded to any job, so when you see a new opportunity, you can move on immediately. It sucks, but we live in the world we live in.
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May 20, 2019 16:00
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no ethical labor under capitalism, etc. etc., but i know how you're feeling. i took a job where i basically have to check my morals at the door because it was the only company to offer me work and i was moving across country. i figure after i put a year in, ill look for something a bit less militaristic and inhumane
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May 20, 2019 17:49
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Eat This Glob posted:no ethical labor under capitalism, etc. etc., but i know how you're feeling. i took a job where i basically have to check my morals at the door because it was the only company to offer me work and i was moving across country. i figure after i put a year in, ill look for something a bit less militaristic and inhumane yeah, that's exactly my plan if i get the job. work there for a year, and get a job in a less morally reprehensible industry. i'm still getting near-panic attacks just thinking about this situation, tho 
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May 20, 2019 17:58
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that's a bummer, though I will say I was under a lot less anxiety having a job to provide a paycheck than moving cross country without one. I was a couple of weeks away from doing just that since my wife and i set a "you're moving, with or without a job" to Thanksgiving last year, and I got hired at the beginning of November and started a bit ahead of turkey day
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May 20, 2019 18:25
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Padams posted:it also doesnt help my mental health to regularly get calls from people whose power got shut off due to non payment and being able to do little to nothing to actually help them after hearing their stories besides point them in the direction of woefully underfunded assistance programs. my favorite calls though are when I get to tell millionaire developers that no, I cant just turn off the power at one of their 30 properties that has squatters because they put it in their own name and we dont care if they are there legally or not.
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May 20, 2019 18:38
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lmao i was in the exact same situation where i worked for a dod contractor for about a year and i quit about 2 weeks ago because any longer and i would have drank myself to death or gotten arrested for insider threat something or other bcause all i did was come in real late and hoot and holler about marxism and convince my team demand better leave hours and telework from our boss i interviewed at some places but i still dont have a job and enough money for maybe 4-5 months of rent and bills
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May 20, 2019 18:51
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i did buy a guitar instead of food and learning how to play it has been keeping my spirits up
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May 20, 2019 18:52
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Poniard posted:lmao i was in the exact same situation where i worked for a dod contractor for about a year and i quit about 2 weeks ago because any longer and i would have drank myself to death or gotten arrested for insider threat something or other bcause all i did was come in real late and hoot and holler about marxism and convince my team demand better leave hours and telework from our boss
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May 20, 2019 19:02
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FactsAreUseless posted:IDK what your state is but if you're not on unemployment yet, get it. It's obnoxious as poo poo to get started but it's worth it. i quit on purpose so i am disqualified from it in my state
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May 20, 2019 19:05
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Poniard posted:i quit on purpose so i am disqualified from it in my state
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May 20, 2019 19:07
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worst comes to worst (not getting a job in 3 months) i can work at the dumbass hardware store i used to work at again and barely survive
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May 20, 2019 19:09
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Padams posted:I cant even bother to change my horribly outdated Obama avatar on here that Ive had since 2008 so I always feel embarrassed to post here it's not outdated, it's vintage brb changing my avatar to John Ashcroft/"let the eagle soar"
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May 20, 2019 21:34
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ghost emoji posted:it's not outdated, it's vintage we seem to have a lot of ghosts who post itt makes u think 
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May 20, 2019 21:41
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hoo boy I just had an intense therapy session. it's wild how much stuff you can block out
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May 20, 2019 23:06
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Padams posted:I cant even bother to change my horribly outdated Obama avatar on here that Ive had since 2008 so I always feel embarrassed to post here. Luckily, some problems are solved more easily than others.
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May 21, 2019 01:12
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Consummate Professional posted:hoo boy I just had an intense therapy session. it's wild how much stuff you can block out grats my issues come from abandonment, so there just wasnt anything to block out. rip
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May 21, 2019 02:20
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I'm coming to terms with the fact that my depression and panic disorders are in fact just straight up PTSD from childhood trauma, so I should probably try to find a therapist again. But that's scary and I don't wanna.
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May 21, 2019 03:02
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I was doing really good there for a minute and had a great weekend, but now it's time for the emotional crash and sobbing again. I'm not a praying woman, but please let this new therapist on Friday be worth a goddamn.
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May 21, 2019 03:26
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Goon Danton posted:I'm coming to terms with the fact that my depression and panic disorders are in fact just straight up PTSD from childhood trauma, so I should probably try to find a therapist again. But that's scary and I don't wanna. It's hard but you're no longer flailing around trying to find what fits.
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May 21, 2019 03:35
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Goon Danton posted:I'm coming to terms with the fact that my depression and panic disorders are in fact just straight up PTSD from childhood trauma, so I should probably try to find a therapist again. But that's scary and I don't wanna. make sure u find a therapist who isn't wed to the DSM because apparently politics within the APA or w/e has made childhood PTSD something that the DSM refuses to speak about/acknowledge as possible, lol
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May 21, 2019 04:16
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juche avocado posted:make sure u find a therapist who isn't wed to the DSM because apparently politics within the APA or w/e has made childhood PTSD something that the DSM refuses to speak about/acknowledge as possible, lol extremely cool to have regressed from freud lol
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May 21, 2019 04:18
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juche avocado posted:make sure u find a therapist who isn't wed to the DSM because apparently politics within the APA or w/e has made childhood PTSD something that the DSM refuses to speak about/acknowledge as possible, lol
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May 21, 2019 04:47
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May 21, 2019 05:15
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got some feedback in class "why does your story deserve to be told over others? what makes yours unique?" and i have no answer because my life is pointless, and im on the edge of a down spiral again fun times
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May 21, 2019 05:29
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got any sevens posted:got some feedback in class "why does your story deserve to be told over others? what makes yours unique?" and i have no answer because my life is pointless, and im on the edge of a down spiral again That's the critique people give when they think something is off about your story but they don't have the experience or the understanding to articulate what. You have no real answer because they have no real question. Trust me on this one--I know a little something about writing, and I know a whole lot about being depressed. There are a lot of things about writing that can be legitimately depressing, but mediocre 'critique' shouldn't be one of them. If you can't use it, you can lose it.
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May 21, 2019 05:36
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i need someone to talk to except i don't have anything to say
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May 21, 2019 08:14
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ahahahahah the last 15 minutes were not good minutes yo this is just me forging catharsis into a post there's not really much to be done about it
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May 21, 2019 08:30
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