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titty pills? titty pls
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Nov 22, 2019 01:39
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Chokes McGee posted:titty pills would be a decent user name tbh Breast mints
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Nov 22, 2019 02:06
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:Breast mints rack em literally
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Nov 22, 2019 02:25
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:Breast mints A friend just started hormones and calls them Titty Skittles. I was disappointed to find out that testosterone does not have equally fun names.
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Nov 22, 2019 02:54
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:Lemme hold a hundred bucks guy who moved across the world I would but I moved from a place where a two bedroom apartment costs $1,000,000 to a place where a two bedroom apartment costs a mere $500,000 so I still need it as an eventual down payment. Congrats on your budding boobs though. I may not be good at commenting but I read everyone else's stuff and have been rooting for you and your friends who got in the car accident. PS root in Aus means gently caress
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Nov 22, 2019 03:35
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UnfortunateSexFart posted:Been talking a lot about it with my therapist. Basically my mom has abandonment issues since her dad died when she was 16 and her mom hosed off back to the Netherlands, leaving her to raise her younger siblings in poverty in 1950s Vancouver (was a tiny logging town back then). So she grew up terrified of being destitute, and was very poor until she married my dad, who worked in tech/video games. Xaris has issued a correction as of 08:44 on Nov 27, 2019 |
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Nov 22, 2019 06:37
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Xaris posted:Tis all good. thanks for sharing. Your situation was way worse than mine, sorry to hear it . It's taken me an embarrassing long time to evaluate myself and come to terms with how and who I am. I've never been suicidal and that hasn't changed, but I've also just gone my entire life feeling virtually nothing as far back as 1st grade even. I almost half-wondered if I'm just some high-functioning autistic but even autistic people find joy in getting obsessed with Sonic or trains or something, I don't even feel that. I think my dopamine receptors are just fundamentally broken because the only time I actually feel anything and get excited and happy and passionate about things is when stoned (assuming I don't get too introspective and spiral down into how lovely I actually am). Supposedly it activates a bunch of hormones and poo poo similar to pregnant women so that would check out. but I just wish I could go about feeling passion and stuff about life all the time, but I've lived it with since at least 1st grade so eh. i didnt have the social isolation aspect but my mom was an emotionally abusive gaslighting hillbilly shithead and my dad stood by and let it happen so I feel you. I still dont know whether or not Id go to their deathbed/ funeral. Praxis says yes but Im so much happier without their toxic bullshit and I know theyd take one last guilt tripping swing at me on the way out. plus my ethics mean never refuse a deathbed request and my dad goes first and says look after your mother thats a millstone around my neck I neither need nor want.
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Nov 22, 2019 07:31
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Im doing the training for my new job and I realized that I am technically management now. I work for a company that has union employees but I am in the corporate sections that are not union. I do not have any supervisor role or employees to manage (I am in an entry-level sales position) but the idea of being management actually fills me with enormous sorrow. The training is currently talking about accommodations for employees for religious reasons or pregnancy and theres just this tone of contempt through the whole thing that is disquieting.
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Nov 22, 2019 16:26
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Lightning Knight posted:Im doing the training for my new job and I realized that I am technically management now. I work for a company that has union employees but I am in the corporate sections that are not union. I do not have any supervisor role or employees to manage (I am in an entry-level sales position) but the idea of being management actually fills me with enormous sorrow. do your best to sabotage the company and especially those people responsible for training without endangering your means
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Nov 22, 2019 16:33
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a mod irl i've been chatting with some girls in my classes lately and get on well with a couple of them, but im afraid to ask them out because i'm sure i'll gently caress something up and wont even have them as an acquaintance any more, let alone friend and i'm still early into transitioning so i'm still misgendered a lot as a man and it makes me sure that no lesbians find me pretty yet and wont for at least a year and another year alone is a sad prospect
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Nov 22, 2019 16:36
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Addamere posted:do your best to sabotage the company and especially those people responsible for training without endangering your means that is effectively my job. my job is to sell stuff to businesses but Im coming into this job from hospitality so Im used to giving customers deals that are better for them than they are for the company so JOKES ON THE COMPANY the usual career path for my position is to go into higher sales and then management but Im going for an alternative path that leads to becoming a service rep or trainer.
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Nov 22, 2019 16:38
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got any sevens posted:a mod irl Hugs. A friend went through this a couple years ago but she was able to find a girlfriend pretty quick once she started reaching out. I obv cannot speak to how ur feeling as I'm cis, but my takeaway from her experience was that a lot of the barrier was internal and it sounds like yours may be as well. Idk how to help u get past that, but being aware of it maybe you could mention it to a therapist or someone who has gone through the same. Take care.
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Nov 22, 2019 17:07
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Lightning Knight posted:I’m doing the training for my new job and I realized that I am technically management now. I work for a company that has union employees but I am in the corporate sections that are not union. I do not have any supervisor role or employees to manage (I am in an entry-level sales position) but the idea of being “management” actually fills me with enormous sorrow. I have my first management position now in retail and the way they try to brainwash you into making money for the company and treat your employees like poo poo is disgusting, I spent an entire training class doodling in a notebook about how gross and bullshit it all is
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Nov 22, 2019 17:08
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BENGHAZI 2 posted:I have my first management position now in retail and the way they try to brainwash you into making money for the company and treat your employees like poo poo is disgusting, I spent an entire training class doodling in a notebook about how gross and bullshit it all is see Im used to the propaganda of training focusing on weird poo poo towards customers or coworkers, but now its referring to like employees and poo poo and its weeeeeeird currently was going through the workplace violence prevention one and its Aggressively Early 2000s.
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Nov 22, 2019 17:13
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Lightning Knight posted:see I’m used to the propaganda of training focusing on weird poo poo towards customers or coworkers, but now it’s referring to like employees and poo poo and it’s weeeeeeird Yeah that was what blew my mind doing my Leadership Stuff, I posted a bunch of pics on Twitter maybe I'll see if I can find them
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Nov 22, 2019 17:18
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Hey lk click through this https://twitter.com/KamenRiderUno/status/1179427479066480641?s=19
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Nov 22, 2019 17:29
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I just feel likeI make the lives of my friends worse and less enjoyable because Im just constantly going off the rails and getting upset. I just feel like breaking things off with all of them so they can feel better.
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Nov 22, 2019 18:42
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SunAndSpring posted:I just feel likeI make the lives of my friends worse and less enjoyable because Im just constantly going off the rails and getting upset. I just feel like breaking things off with all of them so they can feel better.
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Nov 22, 2019 18:51
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Failson posted:This ended up being sleep apnea for me. Just diagnosed and treated this year, and not feeling completely exhausted all the time is a pretty huge improvement. That's good to know. I have a checkin with the doc about it at the beginning of January, so if my exhaustion isn't resolved, we can look at other options. Even made sure to get a Gold Plan for this. Also, I can WFH part time, which is also great. It helps that it's Fall/Winter, and I carved out some great support roles for me in my protest collective. Plus, Twitter!
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Nov 22, 2019 19:06
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got any sevens posted:i've been chatting with some girls in my classes lately and get on well with a couple of them, but im afraid to ask them out because i'm sure i'll gently caress something up and wont even have them as an acquaintance any more, let alone friend you might be surprised by the number of people now who are totally down with dating people who don't neatly fit """traditional""" gender binary presentations. definitely the case for a lot of my friends (also me), even ones who aren't so radical. and most of my queer girl friends, including ones who self-identify as lesbian and/or gay, aren't exclusively into dating girls, they just don't want to date cis men, heh. of course that's not always the case, but i see it often. i know it's scary, though. best of luck 
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Nov 22, 2019 19:09
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i get the management blues. i also have a manager-type title and the only person I actively manage is my boss because he has an enormous amount on his plate but it still feels icky to me. My source of income makes me feel icky, but my wife found a part time policy weiting gig for NAMI, which is extremely my poo poo, so I'm gonna toss my hat in the ring since my job is mostly spent killing time and I do a lot of work from home. I think I'll feel a like I'm doing some actual good in the world helping shape mental health policy in my state. That, or it'll make me feel hopeless seeing the sausage getting made im going to list my qualifications as "broke brained, but functional" "terminally online," "isnt afraid of piece of poo poo lawmakers"
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Nov 22, 2019 20:00
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Colder days coming! If you, or anyone you know, is homeless in Alameda County, here is a list of warming stations around the county.
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Nov 22, 2019 21:34
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Xaris posted:since it's really kind of too much to think about and I rarely share and don't want to redo it, i'll quote the only singular post i've made in the entire 15+ years i've been here about myself Can relate to the "parents dying" dilemma. I moved 11,000km away while my parents are in their mid 70s so that adds another wrinkle. Ironically, the only reason I haven't lived in Australia for 35+ years is because my grandma had a stroke and my mom and I moved back to Vancouver to look after her while she was dying. But she ended up living another dozen years, despite being paralyzed in the hospital, and this hosed up our Aussie citizenship application. My dad ended up joining us in Vancouver and my parents never moved back to Sydney. Took me 30 years to get back to Oz, but I planned to return from the day I left at age 7. Essentially, my mom's guilt changed my whole life for the worse (through factors she couldn't have predicted, to be fair) despite her mom being a bad parent as well. I honestly just can't see my wife and I spending $6,000+ and using our annual leave to watch them die when we've never had a close relationship while they were alive. I feel a bit more guilty about my dad though cuz he doesn't mean harm, he's just mentally incapable of thinking about anyone but himself.
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Nov 22, 2019 23:10
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I came out to a good bit of my magic playgroup last night Granted I did it specifically because there are other trans people in the group so I knew nobody would melt down but still
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Nov 23, 2019 14:28
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Takes strength regardless. Congratulations!
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Nov 23, 2019 22:54
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I lost all my friends when I was sick, and would blow up on people for no reason, and act like a huge rear end in a top hat, I'm different now, but I don't have anyone anymore besides my wife. I feel really lonely.
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Nov 24, 2019 02:27
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Bernie Sanders
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Nov 24, 2019 03:56
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I've been so angry lately, I don't know why it's worsened in the past month or so even though I had nearly a year of stability before that. I'm coming to terms with the fact that all of my life has been defined by rage and its seeped into every facet of my behavior and perception of reality. I think I've been so focused on anxiety, addiction and depression I've never stopped and thought about how much of that stems from anger. I don't think I'm in a very healthy place at the moment, and I'm scared I might lash out and hurt people. I really have no choice but to just not talk to people so I don't risk something setting me off. Even at this moment I there's like a voice or a feeling telling me to just lash out and break something or to dominate someone. Am I being slowly destroyed by the fact that I don't have power over people and can't be violent? I don't know what to do, would any medication help with this? I feel like I just need something to loving relax with but nothing helps. Antipsychotics are the last type of psychiatric medications I've not taken regularly and while being sober, but I'm scared of the side effects. I'm scared and I don't know what to do Chuka Umana has issued a correction as of 05:09 on Nov 24, 2019 |
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Nov 24, 2019 05:05
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paul_soccer10 posted:Bernie Sanders
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Nov 24, 2019 06:07
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Chuka Umana posted:I don't know what to do, would any medication help with this? I feel like I just need something to loving relax with but nothing helps. Antipsychotics are the last type of psychiatric medications I've not taken regularly and while being sober, but I'm scared of the side effects. maybe. talk to your doctor.
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Nov 24, 2019 06:16
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Chuka Umana posted:I've been so angry lately, I don't know why it's worsened in the past month or so even though I had nearly a year of stability before that. I'm coming to terms with the fact that all of my life has been defined by rage and its seeped into every facet of my behavior and perception of reality. I think I've been so focused on anxiety, addiction and depression I've never stopped and thought about how much of that stems from anger. I don't think I'm in a very healthy place at the moment, and I'm scared I might lash out and hurt people. I really have no choice but to just not talk to people so I don't risk something setting me off. Even at this moment I there's like a voice or a feeling telling me to just lash out and break something or to dominate someone. Talk to a p-doc and be honest about these feelings so they can help. I would strongly urge therapy, but by the same token, you may have something else like bipolar or ptsd wreaking havoc with your emotions. I am not a doctor tho so definitely see someone who is
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Nov 24, 2019 08:08
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Also there are drugs you can take to calm anxiety that might help although Ive also heard stuff like benzos can reduce impulse control. gabapentin does wonders for my anxiety and insomnia but thats also a drug you have to be careful with, plus its psych meds so lol who the hell knows doctor tho definitely
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Nov 24, 2019 08:11
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triple post crafts are important, try doing a craft
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Nov 24, 2019 08:13
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Chokes, for the good of this thread, you need to become a doctor
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Nov 24, 2019 08:13
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eric ciaramella posted:Chokes, for the good of this thread, you need to become a doctor hahahahaha haha oh no youre serious 
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Nov 24, 2019 18:22
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Dr Chokes McGee coworker of Dr Mantis Toboggan
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Nov 24, 2019 19:06
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Nice friendship bracelets
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Nov 24, 2019 22:24
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My wife just got accepted into nurse practitioner school, and she's a goon, so if you can wait 3-5 years itll allllllllllll be gravy lol
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Nov 24, 2019 23:34
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Chokes McGee posted:Talk to a p-doc and be honest about these feelings so they can help. I would strongly urge therapy, but by the same token, you may have something else like bipolar or ptsd wreaking havoc with your emotions. I am not a doctor tho so definitely see someone who is I am seeing a doctor, I'm working on the issues but it gets so overwhelming sometimes. I'm taking a variety of medications that work well it just seems anger is the emotion that's stuck around. I'm not a veteran or been the victim of a violent crime, so I doubt it's PTSD and it's not bipolar disorder because the mood swings are too rapid.
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Nov 24, 2019 23:38
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Chuka Umana posted:I am seeing a doctor, I'm working on the issues but it gets so overwhelming sometimes. I'm taking a variety of medications that work well it just seems anger is the emotion that's stuck around. are you seeing a doctor that mainly prescribes medicine or one that does therapy and prescribes stuff? this sounds like something therapy would help with, so maybe pursue that if you're not already doing it. but, like chokes said, bringing this up to your current doctor is a good idea
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