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Reposting from E/N. Some basic info about me would help. 24 m US officer currently deployed to a foreign country. I got injured one year prior to now right before going to failing to go to ranger school and from there my life started spiraling out of control. I have so little motivation to do anything other than the bare minimum for my job and nothing else. I lead a platoon and they are the only reason I still even try, for their sake. I rarely do any sort of self motivated exercise and hate my boss and most of my peers. I feel like I've made a terrible decision regarding my life and the fantasy in my head of what I would have been is smashed beyond repair. I'm a loser, and just want to hide in the dark in my room. I don't have any family really nor any previous romantic relationships to speak of, so no one is relying on me but myself. My hobby used to be video games, but I haven't played any in the past 4 months. I just don't enjoy it any more. I don't enjoy anything anymore. It's like anything I can think about I chalk up as a failure on my part. I'm a broken, social reject. A stupid person, and I don't know what the gently caress I'm supposed to do with myself. Sorry these thoughts are so disjointed. I should clarify that I don't feel like this all of the time and above all else I want to go to rangers and get a tab. I hosed myself hard.
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# ¿ Dec 13, 2014 17:01 |
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# ¿ May 22, 2024 18:09 |
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Genocide Tendency posted:Did your injury disqualify you from the Rangers or did you just not attempt it because of injury? I had stress fractures down my shins that made it really painful to run or ruck for any distance. That was during BOLC so I would get a second chance if I went to the career course. I've seen dudes way more immature and stupid than I am pass through with flying colors so I don't think that it is that impossible. I don't have any firearms and am deployed for another 2 months. I work night shifts on base and rarely get consistent sleep. Everyone hates the battalion and everyone hates their stupid plans and policies. EIB during the last month of deployment= genius planning.
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# ¿ Dec 13, 2014 17:46 |
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Can't drink right now, due to always working all of the time. To be honest I was lucky even to come on this deployment with the way my pre deployment leave went. heavy drinking daily. Blacking out daily. I didn't care. i bet everything on being a military officer in the infantry. And I keep messing it up. i loving hate my CO and chain of command. "An officer is 75% looking the part"=push others down to make yourself look better "I'm your friend but I'm not your friend." 'You're going to burn for this one"=never having my back on anything. Choice quotes from his "counselings" Both he and our 1SG are getting out so they could give a gently caress. Our unit is disbanding so they could give a gently caress. gently caress them. I wasted college on this poo poo. No relationships, limited partying, in part due to my poor social skills and zero game. I kept to myself and tried to get good grades. i didn't relate well with civilian students and ROTC was clickish to such a huge degree. I feel like i've wasted my life. i have no hobbies. i have no friends. I would be lying if I said I hadn't had suicidal thoughts. if I lose this job I lose everything, in every sense of the word..
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# ¿ Dec 13, 2014 23:53 |
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Got fired today, pushed up to staff. I don't give a gently caress anymore. Everything's over.
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# ¿ Jan 10, 2015 08:06 |
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Internet is too slow/expensive here on base for voice chat. I'll have normal internet in a few weeks when I get back to the states. Many thanks to everyone who reached out to me.
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# ¿ Jan 11, 2015 15:07 |
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send me an invite Edited out email Somebody fucked around with this message at 16:23 on Jan 11, 2015 |
# ¿ Jan 11, 2015 15:16 |
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# ¿ May 22, 2024 18:09 |
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hosed up email. Made a new one. Invite me.
Bogard fucked around with this message at 16:49 on Jan 11, 2015 |
# ¿ Jan 11, 2015 16:35 |