Avshalom posted:

it would be super cool in fact

i have no doubt in my heart that the ladythread is excellent, i'm not posting here for validation. just because sometimes it kind of helps to whine really really loudly like a mosquito and know that people can hear me

GNU Order posted:

Ladythread do any of you remember the A/T thread about the person whose roommate (or friend) had like anime spirit-boyfriends? Was that one of y'all?

Kimmalah posted:

You mean Ask me about growing up with a girl who thinks she's married to anime guys? That wasn't posted by one of the regulars in here I don't think. It's still current, it's just fallen off the first page of Ask/Tell.

Avshalom posted:

once again the ladythread has mentored me through my time of crisis and i feel a bit better i don't even know what's going on with me, i've been having these nutty moodswings that send me from fine to suicidal and back up again in like an hour. i think they're too fast to be a mood disorder and too powerful to be a normal reaction to events so idk i will consult a medical physician

i really really appreciate having you guys here, it's hard to express it. last time i had someone i could talk to online, i ended up going off at her while i was in a particularly bad state and she chose that moment to stand up for herself (she told me during the ensuing screaming match that she'd made a new year's resolution to be more assertive and this was her first opportunity to go through with it) and tell me that everybody secretly hated me and i was just a drama queen who would never have any friends and would end up driving everyone away for the rest of my life and i was beyond hope and she wanted me to know that everyone was just pretending to like me and they secretly talked behind my back about how horrible i was. that was three years ago and i've never been able to open up since. you're beautiful people i love you

amarantinesky posted:

And depression etc make you paranoid that people are avoiding you and gossiping because to some extent they DO start avoiding you. They don't want to bother you or deal with your issues, etc. It's because it's difficult to deal with mental illness but it's not your fault, it's the unfortunate effect of brain issues. Depression is a terrible cycle because you think people hate you so you withdraw, which makes others avoid you and confirms your belief that everyone hates you, repeat over and over.

Pessimism posted:

I don't cackle when I cry but sometimes when I'm really super miserable I make sounds like a dying moose.

GNU Order posted:

Ladythread do any of you remember the A/T thread about the person whose roommate (or friend) had like anime spirit-boyfriends? Was that one of y'all?

GNU Order posted:

Yeah, thanks.

I'm going in, see you all on the other side

amarantinesky posted:

Aww thank you. Honestly that's why I'm really anxious about making new friends irl, I've just had lovely experiences recently. I feel bad because she couldn't make me better and since she's a control freak, she couldn't handle that situation. Also it was like two days before college graduation haha.

Pessimism posted:

I don't cackle when I cry but sometimes when I'm really super miserable I make sounds like a dying moose.

Pessimism posted:

Why are we all such awful broken people?

Fabulist posted:

warning I ended up talking about my kid a lot in this post. skip if you hate breeders.


I used do this to my kid, I'd poke his tongue (not too far back). When he was a newborn he'd react almost exactly like a cat, all confused and mildly angry. When he got a bit older, like 8+ months, it made him laugh. Then he started getting teeth and I don't do that any more

I also didn't do it if like, I'd just changed a massively gross diaper and hadn't washed my hands. Just in case that worry popped into anyone's head. Although apparently the 'don't overprotect them from germs' thing is true, we haven't over-protected him, and he legit has made it two and a half years on this earth without a cold/flu/anything. Just teething pain grouchiness.

Earlier today I was changing the sheets on his crib mattress, and when he saw me start to haul the mattress out of the crib, he went and grabbed the other end of it and grunted a lot When I got it out (it's heavy, I'm short, the crib is tall, it's like a Cadillac of cribs) and threw it on the ground he went "Whew"

Chiba City Blues posted:

i was meeting with a higher up about applying to a grad school program and i told him my mental illness sob story since its relevant as to why my gpa is terrible, and im still at that point where ill start crying when i talk about this poo poo one on one but i also have nervous laughter so i was both laughing and crying and im sure i made a very weird impression on him


sorry dr ramu

Portals posted:

oh man I totally feel you there, I loving hate when the waterworks start up while I'm trying to be taken seriously

Gorgar posted:

Portals posted:

I don't get really self-loathing like I did before medication but I still get the paranoia that people are saying really awful things about me behind my back. my method of dealing with that has been to acknowledge that I am very much not a perfect person but that I should try the best I can, and no one can judge me for that

Schmeichy posted:

Now, now. We're very nice broken people.

Chiba City Blues posted:

he was actually really sweet about it and pretty much said "we shouldnt penalize you for having a mental illness, you're trying to get your life back together and i'm not going to hold that against you" and he's the guy whos pretty much going to make the final decision on my application so i felt pretty good about that

Suzuki Method posted:

If any of you follow Gordon Ramsay's Kitchen Nightmares, particularly the episode about Amy's Baking Company, Amy and Sami are now accusing Gordon Ramsay of sexually harassing Amy Best train wreck I have ever seen on tv.

Schmeichy posted:

This warms my sad heart. I cut off contact with all my professors after undergrad even though I liked them a lot and wanted to go to grad school. For some reason I felt ashamed of not finding a job right away or knowing what I wanted to do and couldn't admit any of that. Brain problems.

amarantinesky posted:

really wanting to go drinking

EXTREME INSERTION posted:

I Get headaches

Captain Backslap posted:

Make your hair like rainbow dash's or rainbow bright or whatever the punk pony is.

amarantinesky posted:

I make the worst posts don't worry I'll probably delete them when the light of day illuminates my shame.

Chiba City Blues posted:

i have another professor from my old major i keep in contact with who was very sweet towards me while i was taking her classes even though i was a terrible student then, like she new something was up other than "doesnt care about class/school/subject material, and when i took her class after i took some time off and did well she told me in her office how proud she was of me
shes writing a letter of recommendation for my application now

but ive also had professors that i could just tell that they didnt like me and knew i didnt belong
well i did end up switching majors after getting my head on straight so i really didn't belong but drat you dont gotta be a dick about it

amarantinesky posted:

I make the worst posts don't worry I'll probably delete them when the light of day illuminates my shame.

In other news I am going to dye my hair a lovely color soon and I'm pretty excited. I'll even take a picture of my curls if the color works out well.

Avshalom posted:

no it is me, my posts are the worst

i'm kicking myself irl because i've ruined the last place on the internet where people don't think i'm a horrible unlikable gently caress-up

Avshalom posted:

no it is me, my posts are the worst

i'm kicking myself irl because i've ruined the last place on the internet where people don't think i'm a horrible unlikable gently caress-up