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Second Hand Meat Mouth)
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tokin opposition posted:You don't have to be autistic to post here lol
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 04:17 |
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# ? Jun 8, 2024 19:51 |
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tokin opposition posted:Yeah SA has gotten a lot nicer. I'm not sure if that's because all the assholes got banned, that they're posting in places I'm not in, or if old age has mellowed out the average goon. lowtax was an rear end in a top hat from the start and created an abusive moderation structure and encouraged hostility all around, he didn't get out of control until the drug abuse/head injury got to him but he was always kind of a rear end in a top hat, just stil able to turn it off at the timr but like, he thought helldump closing was a bad move, posted on kiwifarms and somethingsensitive and w/e
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 04:28 |
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I think lowtax was def jealous and bitter that moot stole his thunder
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 04:37 |
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Ghost Leviathan posted:I think lowtax was def jealous and bitter that moot stole his thunder he got mad at anyone that he had any opportunity to be mad at i don't think he was ever a very happy guy and probably never addressed his poo poo & blamed everyone around him for his bad mood bc narcissist
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 04:47 |
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Charlatan Eschaton posted:responding 4 days later I appreciate the response!! It's a weird one for me when it comes to posting, since part of it is definitely worry about how I'm perceived, and another part of it is just weird standards in my head I hold myself to that absolutely no one else is going to notice or care about. Dumbass things like making sure everything flows in a way that sounds best to me, that I'm not overusing or repeating words too much, making sure it's not overly explanatory and rambly or too short and vague, and other poo poo like that. Which again, something that absolutely zero people besides me are going to give a poo poo about. It is funny at times though, since it feels like it gives me a partial immunity to things like drunken meltdown posting, since even outside not drinking too frequently, if I try to post online or in a group chat or something while intoxicated, it still needs to go through the mental editorial board before I'll actually hit send. With hobbies and art for me, the biggest issue has always been when I hit a plateau after starting to improve a good bit or when I feel like I'm not making any progress to begin with, which ends up getting to a point where I just get frustrated with what I'm doing and end up quitting for a while. I love repetition when it comes to things that I feel more confident with, like whenever I learn a new song on keyboard I can play that same song over and over for weeks on end and have a blast doing it each time (especially when it's something that I'm proud to be able to play), or when I was really into baking earlier in the year I loved to make bread in a routine, having a specific one to bake on certain days of the week and never really straying beyond the 3 or so recipes I really liked to do. Even outside creating stuff, I've always been the type of person who loves to listen to the same handful of bands, rewatch the same handful of movies, and replay the same handful of games over and over and over again. Sort of a comfort with familiarity thing, I guess. RHase posted:I had an intake with a new provider earlier in the month, and from the sounds of it I should (hopefully) be finally getting medicated as well next week. In other news, had my follow up appointment today and now I'm officially diagnosed and medicated for ADHD Here's to hopefully breaking out of the endless mental haze I've grown way too familiar with the past couple decades.
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 06:10 |
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FirstnameLastname posted:he got mad at anyone that he had any opportunity to be mad at True that. Everything up to him committing suicide literally to deny his kids child support seems to come down to the narcissistic need to have power and exercise it over others, and having any kind of obligation to anyone or others having leverage over him is utterly anathema.
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 06:20 |
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tokin opposition posted:You don't have to be autistic to post here
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 06:25 |
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RHase posted:With hobbies and art for me, the biggest issue has always been when I hit a plateau after starting to improve a good bit or when I feel like I'm not making any progress to begin with, which ends up getting to a point where I just get frustrated with what I'm doing and end up quitting for a while. I love repetition when it comes to things that I feel more confident with, like whenever I learn a new song on keyboard I can play that same song over and over for weeks on end and have a blast doing it each time (especially when it's something that I'm proud to be able to play), or when I was really into baking earlier in the year I loved to make bread in a routine, having a specific one to bake on certain days of the week and never really straying beyond the 3 or so recipes I really liked to do. Even outside creating stuff, I've always been the type of person who loves to listen to the same handful of bands, rewatch the same handful of movies, and replay the same handful of games over and over and over again. Sort of a comfort with familiarity thing, I guess. I think every ADHD person has the remains of dozens of hobbies they got really into for a few weeks or months then hit a plateau and lost interest in
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 06:27 |
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one of the things i am proudest of over the last year and a half or so is sticking with something hard long enough to beat a few plateaus. waiting on some biggers ones to hit me though
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 06:40 |
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local man becomes insane rereg
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 06:41 |
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Dunno who this is and if you want me to interpret facial expressions you might want to remember I spent my childhood posting
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 07:03 |
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Nix Panicus posted:I think every ADHD person has the remains of dozens of hobbies they got really into for a few weeks or months then hit a plateau and lost interest in Hahaha Welp
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 07:04 |
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tokin opposition posted:Dunno who this is and if you want me to interpret facial expressions you might want to remember I spent my childhood posting Its from the movie Falling Down, where a white guy becomes increasingly violent and belligerent but blames it on everyone else. At the end of the movie the cops chase him down for crimes and he has a moment of realization that he isnt a lone bastion of decency and humanity standing against the scum of the world, hes actually the bad guy. Thats his face as he says 'I'm the bad guy?' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLmuF-0P4tk
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 07:12 |
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I gotta figure out alternatives to dating sites because I had the same experience every woman has on those (thousands of anonymous likes and a few messages from the horniest men alive and women trying to find a third for their nasty boyfriend), but I don't really know if its normal to go to a bar (the other stand-by for finding singles) and not drink considering the fact that drinking makes me feel absolutely miserable
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 07:20 |
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The people you meet at a bar are going to be the kind of people who go to bars to meet people. While theres nothing wrong with that, if you're not a bar kind of person maybe going out with a bar person is not an ideal match? Consider going out to do things you do like, or things that look interesting, and meet people who inherently share at least one interest?
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 07:38 |
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hobby and interest spaces that you make a habit of are the move. 100 years ago everyone got married to someone they met at church. what could be the equivalent, for you
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 07:53 |
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Ohtori Akio posted:hobby and interest spaces that you make a habit of are the move. 100 years ago everyone got married to someone they met at church. what could be the equivalent, for you the church of cspam
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 07:57 |
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tokin opposition posted:Dunno who this is and if you want me to interpret facial expressions you might want to remember I spent my childhood posting
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 08:13 |
FirstnameLastname posted:lowtax was an rear end in a top hat from the start and created an abusive moderation structure and encouraged hostility all around, he didn't get out of control until the drug abuse/head injury got to him but he was always kind of a rear end in a top hat, just stil able to turn it off at the timr I still can’t believe you can buy out other people’s avatar. This is pretty much only used to cyber bully
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 09:33 |
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skooma512 posted:I still can’t believe you can buy out other people’s avatar. This is pretty much only used to cyber bully It's also used to fake cyberbullying
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 09:54 |
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tokin opposition posted:Either that or I've simply become universally loved and acclaimed i think thats part of it at least
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 17:31 |
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Ohtori Akio posted:hobby and interest spaces that you make a habit of are the move. what if all of my hobbies and interests exist in my basement
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 19:09 |
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Meet people who also like basements using the internet
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 20:31 |
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tokin opposition posted:Yeah SA has gotten a lot nicer. I'm not sure if that's because all the assholes got banned, that they're posting in places I'm not in, or if old age has mellowed out the average goon. I called you a nerd earlier but I think your posts are good
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 21:49 |
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FirstnameLastname posted:i found an at home ketamine therapy woot rly does work btw normal feeling beyond measure
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 22:21 |
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FirstnameLastname posted:rly does work btw lol we see your posts you know
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 22:27 |
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Second Hand Meat Mouth posted:lol we see your posts you know lol i thought i was writing something legible
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 23:16 |
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Saying 'the drugs have made me incredibly normal' but Im so high it comes out in an unintelligible slurred mumble as I piss myself
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 23:18 |
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The cool thing about euphoric psychoactive drugs is that it's impossible to do blind studies on their clinical effectiveness.
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 23:46 |
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Nix Panicus posted:Saying 'the drugs have made me incredibly normal' but Im so high it comes out in an unintelligible slurred mumble as I piss myself lol but really it makes the like, locked-up disassociated depressive ptsd stuff all just kind of go away, almost immediately and the world feels okay again and then it wears off but that stuffs still gone & the world still feels okay and i don't feel like i need to take more or need to take anything else now just to continue feeling okay, i don't feel like I'm just staving off the lovely feelings all sinking back in by the next time i wake up or something lovely happens for pharmaceuticals that's already an outcome better than every ssri, snri, tricyclic, weird atypical med I've ever tried and itd be easier to list the ones i didn't take. none helped fix anything and several objectively just made things worse while i took them i know im a v. atypical case and that usually people don't go through 19 different prescriptions to no results but for treatment resistant depression trauma stuff it works crazy good for making things feel like they used to again
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 23:51 |
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I'm an autist born in 1995 so you bet I know everything to know about the first few hundred pokemon Classic cross diagnosis of adhd (unmedicated long story) but I didn't get either diagnosis till 22 and 27 respectively so childhood was, a time I'm also schizophrenic. I've only met a handful of schizo autists, they sure leave a fuckin impression Ummm ptsd in there somewhere. In and out of recovery for IV crystal meth (and like, whatever else you could think of, that's the worst one tho) (this is why medicating adhd is difficult) Basically not sure how I'm alive. Least I'm not American I like this thread.
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 23:55 |
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Forever having to convince people that no, I really am autistic, yes I know I don't "look" like it, yes it does make me very clever, no I do have feelings, blah blah blah
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# ? Dec 29, 2023 23:59 |
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Current health goal is getting adhd medicated, my drs slowly on board with the idea. Recent health achievement is getting medical cannabis products rolling (in Australia!!!) and ditching all benzos and opiods Well that's me or I'll post another 17 times peace
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# ? Dec 30, 2023 00:01 |
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OK one more post: I read something early in thread about connecting with your autistic kids and got really happy. If you leave your autistic kids to rot I happen. You don't want me happening. Kudos for spreading the good word
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# ? Dec 30, 2023 00:04 |
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Ol sakkman posted:Forever having to convince people that no, I really am autistic, yes I know I don't "look" like it, yes it does make me very clever, no I do have feelings, blah blah blah lol yeah I don't act autistic outwardly because that got me abused and rejected as a kid. so I'm pretty good at masking!!
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# ? Dec 30, 2023 00:09 |
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Second Hand Meat Mouth posted:lol yeah I don't act autistic outwardly because that got me abused and rejected as a kid. so I'm pretty good at masking!! I end up keeping exes around cos they're the only people I can be autistic around for whatever reason. All stimmy and twitchy and groany. Can't even do that poo poo alone!!! Adding an (un)healthy layer of schizo dissociative issues to the normal disconnection to sensory input makes things just... It's remarkable how one can look cool calm collected and be an absolute raging nuclear poo poo fire internally
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# ? Dec 30, 2023 00:13 |
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How did I get to 28 years of age before finding a social space that was "autism: we got it. What's up with that" that's truly ludicrous
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# ? Dec 30, 2023 00:15 |
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Ol sakkman posted:It's remarkable how one can look cool calm collected and be an absolute raging nuclear poo poo fire internally thread title lol
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# ? Dec 30, 2023 00:15 |
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autism rules
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# ? Dec 30, 2023 00:20 |
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# ? Jun 8, 2024 19:51 |
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mags posted:autism rules I maintain its the loving non autists making GBS threads it up for everyone. We could all coexist but nooooo
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# ? Dec 30, 2023 00:21 |