dervival posted:

huh, wonder why they went with Teva for you specifically

Jimbone Tallshanks posted:

I'm worried they may strike again but mods have denied my request for a protective detail.

Pennywise the Frown posted:

I took the scooter downtown by the lake again. There is a big rear end torpedo there which I didn't know is called Navy Memorial Park. I think it's a Mark 14 but I'm not sure. It's fuckin' yuge. Like 20 feet long.

redshirt posted:

Handsome lad.

How goes the no alcohol?

Pennywise the Frown posted:

Today is day 8. My nephew stayed over last night and brought over a single 24oz beer. He forgot about it and left it here and I was going to drink it tonight after doing so much stuff today but I didn't!

Tomorrow I have to drive an hour to do storm spotter training (I did it a few years ago but forgot stuff, it's free so hey) and I set my alarm for 9am which is very early for me so I don't even want any alcohol in my system that might screw up my sleep.

My sleep is very weird now. In a good way. My dreams are much crazier and more vivid (which is actually the norm for me, alcohol suppresses them) and the most insane thing is that when I wake up, my bed isn't a complete disaster. Two sleep studies ago they said I "sleep violently" because I wake up 20+ times a night and thrash around. I'll wake up for 20 seconds, flip around, and go right back into the same dream I was having. The past few days my bed is still mostly made when I wake up! Usually the pillows/blankets get twisted up around me or knocked on the floor. And I'm not waking up nearly as much.

I just have to keep reminding myself how lovely I'll feel if I drink a ton. The sleep alone is blowing my mind. Alcohol just destroys sleep. I gotta keep this up.

I can actually eat during the day now and not throw it up 20 minutes later. I'm very very excited about that since it's been about a year since I didn't have to eat after 15 beers at 1am. Yeah... I was actually doing pretty bad. I just didn't care.

pencilhands posted:

youve got this my goon

SIDS Vicious posted:

idk when i painted this i found it in my closet

Pennywise the Frown posted:

Today is day 8. My nephew stayed over last night and brought over a single 24oz beer. He forgot about it and left it here and I was going to drink it tonight after doing so much stuff today but I didn't!

Tomorrow I have to drive an hour to do storm spotter training (I did it a few years ago but forgot stuff, it's free so hey) and I set my alarm for 9am which is very early for me so I don't even want any alcohol in my system that might screw up my sleep.

My sleep is very weird now. In a good way. My dreams are much crazier and more vivid (which is actually the norm for me, alcohol suppresses them) and the most insane thing is that when I wake up, my bed isn't a complete disaster. Two sleep studies ago they said I "sleep violently" because I wake up 20+ times a night and thrash around. I'll wake up for 20 seconds, flip around, and go right back into the same dream I was having. The past few days my bed is still mostly made when I wake up! Usually the pillows/blankets get twisted up around me or knocked on the floor. And I'm not waking up nearly as much.

I just have to keep reminding myself how lovely I'll feel if I drink a ton. The sleep alone is blowing my mind. Alcohol just destroys sleep. I gotta keep this up.

I can actually eat during the day now and not throw it up 20 minutes later. I'm very very excited about that since it's been about a year since I didn't have to eat after 15 beers at 1am. Yeah... I was actually doing pretty bad. I just didn't care.

Pennywise the Frown posted:

Today is day 8. My nephew stayed over last night and brought over a single 24oz beer. He forgot about it and left it here and I was going to drink it tonight after doing so much stuff today but I didn't!

Tomorrow I have to drive an hour to do storm spotter training (I did it a few years ago but forgot stuff, it's free so hey) and I set my alarm for 9am which is very early for me so I don't even want any alcohol in my system that might screw up my sleep.

My sleep is very weird now. In a good way. My dreams are much crazier and more vivid (which is actually the norm for me, alcohol suppresses them) and the most insane thing is that when I wake up, my bed isn't a complete disaster. Two sleep studies ago they said I "sleep violently" because I wake up 20+ times a night and thrash around. I'll wake up for 20 seconds, flip around, and go right back into the same dream I was having. The past few days my bed is still mostly made when I wake up! Usually the pillows/blankets get twisted up around me or knocked on the floor. And I'm not waking up nearly as much.

I just have to keep reminding myself how lovely I'll feel if I drink a ton. The sleep alone is blowing my mind. Alcohol just destroys sleep. I gotta keep this up.

I can actually eat during the day now and not throw it up 20 minutes later. I'm very very excited about that since it's been about a year since I didn't have to eat after 15 beers at 1am. Yeah... I was actually doing pretty bad. I just didn't care.

Pennywise the Frown posted:

redshirt posted:

My man.

What are your thoughts going forward? Do you have a timeline?

Pennywise the Frown posted:

I took the scooter downtown by the lake again. There is a big rear end torpedo there which I didn't know is called Navy Memorial Park. I think it's a Mark 14 but I'm not sure. It's fuckin' yuge. Like 20 feet long.

emSparkly posted:

You should dress up in a gimp suit and ride on the torpedo. It would be pretty cool.

emSparkly posted:

You should dress up like a cowboy and ride on the torpedo. It would be pretty cool.

Pennywise the Frown posted:

No idea. I'm fully assuming that something bad will happen and I can't deal with the emotions so I'll start drinking again. I'm reading books/audiobooks on alcohol to try to motivate me and to get me to stop liking booze. It really is one of the worst drugs on absolutely every level.

I'm just trying to keep busy and do things that alcohol wouldn't allow me to do previously. Which I guess is just about everything.

I'm playing it by ear this time and just trying to stay relaxed and not overdo it. A lot of the time when I stop drinking I almost immediately go near manic but that seems to have slowly eased up over the past 10+ years. My psychiatrist had a bunch of doctors go over all of my medical records as sort of a meta analysis and they don't believe I'm bipolar anymore. Possibly a personality disorder now along with the good ol' fashioned depression/anxiety.

I gotta stay active. I think that should be my main focus atm.

Pennywise the Frown posted:

Pennywise the Frown posted:

My psychiatrist had a bunch of doctors go over all of my medical records as sort of a meta analysis and they don't believe I'm bipolar anymore. Possibly a personality disorder now along with the good ol' fashioned depression/anxiety.

I gotta stay active. I think that should be my main focus atm.

SIDS Vicious posted:

my friend and goon khanstants story

draw the time i went in a drain tunnel to find a dead bodfy but it was just trash and a basketball

SIDS Vicious posted:

one time when my wife and i first moved to the city we live in now we rented a place and the only door we had was down a set of stairs due to it being a basement apartment also, we had a raccoon who lived outside and one day he knocked over our garbage bin and trapped us in our apartment

Pennywise the Frown posted:

Saint Isaias Boner posted:

krust remains unbusted

Pennywise the Frown posted:

I took the scooter downtown by the lake again. There is a big rear end torpedo there which I didn't know is called Navy Memorial Park. I think it's a Mark 14 but I'm not sure. It's fuckin' yuge. Like 20 feet long.