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Cybernetic Vermin posted:your body suddenly trying to correctly communicate that "sleeping through the night sure would be helpful"? well imma about to get pulled off my “piss like a racehorse” drug so maybe Ill find out what that’s like some time
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it’s not very good still
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echinopsis posted:it’s not very good mlyp
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been trying to cut back on the weed, and holy poo poo are the dreams wild. woman i dated 20 years ago and haven't seen or talked to in 15 has been the star of the show three nights going now
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is that good it sounds good
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more depressing than anything
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6am, july 4. i think it's time for a bowl. bring back the dream suppression
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oh no blimp issue posted:im on 70mg of lisdexamphetamine and it definitely doesn't make me feel buzzed or high or anything, i can just concentrate on things finally concentration is it’s own high
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the real high is getting your poo poo done without procrastinating and then going “holy poo poo i have so much guilt-free free time now”
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polyester concept posted:the real high is getting your poo poo done without procrastinating and then going “holy poo poo i have so much guilt-free free time now” i have no idea what that’s like
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mediaphage posted:i have no idea what that’s like
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mediaphage posted:i have no idea what that’s like
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mediaphage posted:i have no idea what that’s like
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mediaphage posted:i have no idea what that’s like
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polyester concept posted:the real high is getting your poo poo done without procrastinating and then going “holy poo poo i have so much guilt-free free time now” I have a pharmacy education module thing to complete. gently caress I can't be bothered. its on oral contraceptives.
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mediaphage posted:i have no idea what that’s like
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polyester concept posted:the real high is getting your poo poo done without procrastinating and then going “holy poo poo i have so much guilt-free free time now” this is a ruse by Big Productivity because there is always more Stuff to do i will not be fooled
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I need to see my dr to refill my vyvanse prescription but couldn't get an appointment early enough before my current supply runs out, so i didn't take any on the weekend so that i'll still have enough for the work week. back on it again today and it's so good 
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my doctor gave me enough for 2 a day but I asked if I could take three a day and i’ve also been experimenting with 2 at a time to see how that goes which I think is a more appropriate dose sucks trying rk ration them. and now i’m out and I don’t see dr for a week so back to raw dogging it I guess
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I generally don't take my addies on the weekends anyhow, keep tolerance down. Or at least that's what I tell myself
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slowly coming to grips with very much needing therapy but ughhhhhh i don't want to the last two attempts i made at therapy were dogshit, but my motivation to leave the house is nearly rock bottom, which isn't doing much for my ultimate goal of having a job again. agoraphobia sucks. i couldn't get the last therapist i tried to even recognize that i needed help, nevermind that i was on medical leave from my job at the time because of bad brain. and my problems are so boring and banal (but they still exist!!!!). i'm bad at being honest with therapists. i hate disappointing them. also really need to get a psychiatrist again. maybe getting back on adhd meds would ya know, help. on a similar note tho, i've gone without ambien for about a month now, AND my sleep is pretty good, and my sleep hygiene is the best it's ever been. silver linings.
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mediaphage posted:i have no idea what that’s like
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Gnossiennes posted:slowly coming to grips with very much needing therapy but ughhhhhh i don't want to Getting your sleeping patterns in good shape is a great start! I also have problems where I know what I need to do to help myself, but my brain just goes "er, no" and it doesn't happen. You need to be inthe right place mentally to take the first step.
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Keeping a good sleep schedule does wonders for your mental (and physical) health. Taking your adhd meds is gonna help you get of your rear end and do things. Talking about your problems with someone is going to help you deal with them. I would also recommend some physical activity, I like to take walks but agoraphobia might make that hard
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Gnossiennes posted:slowly coming to grips with very much needing therapy but ughhhhhh i don't want to i know what you mean, i just started with a therapist and the whole thing feels like "i don't know what this is going to accomplish". like, i don't really have any problems talking about what my issues are but i'm not sure a therapist can really help with them. but i've been trying to keep an open attitude about it. i've only seen them twice though so it's still kinda early to tell if it would be actually helpful. still, if you feel you need to talk to someone about what's going on, you probably should but yeah, at the very least talk to a psychiatrist. the adhd meds really do help when you're trying to get a job, i'm trying to get to see one here for it and it's been incredibly slow going. i had an "appointment" last week that was literally just intake and still don't have one with the actual doctor
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mates god drat i am depressed at the moment. about as bad as it gets need to do bunch of poo poo to house before house sale finalised on the upper hand next thursday i’ll have about 140k in my hand and i’ll be able to pay off every single debt I have and also buy my kids some sports shoes and one of them half of a gaming pc but right now i have to do a few menial things including calling a lock smith and no lie my motivation is at an all time low. used all my ritalin and should get a more significant dose tomorrow hopefully being back on that should do something foe the profound lack of motivation gently caress I can be a loser 
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I appreciate every single one of you that has ever said anything nice to me
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You're alright in my book, echi
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sorry to hear that you're depressed. i've been going through it myself and it sucks rear end but maybe it's being made worse by withdrawal? in that case getting your meds tomorrow should help. i hope you sort it out though
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sorry you’re at a personal nadir atm bro, just think how much less stress you’re gonna have in a week. it’s gonna be grand. where do we send the housewarming prezzies lol
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thankyou for the support my friends  means a lot some good news : clearing our mail and find finalised divorced papers. am no longer married!!!
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echinopsis posted:thankyou for the support my friends hurray
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Beeftweeter posted:i know what you mean, i just started with a therapist and the whole thing feels like "i don't know what this is going to accomplish". like, i don't really have any problems talking about what my issues are but i'm not sure a therapist can really help with them. but i've been trying to keep an open attitude about it. i've only seen them twice though so it's still kinda early to tell if it would be actually helpful. still, if you feel you need to talk to someone about what's going on, you probably should yeah, i know that feeling. idk if it's similar for you on the adhd side, but any time a therapist asks "ok what are your goals?" it's just a blank stare from me. idk, what the gently caress are goals? my goals? to not be hosed up i guess??? i have years of therapy under my belt, but most of that time was wheel spinnin, tbh. what i likely need is decent emdr therapy, but it's a pain to find someone who does emdr, has good trans competency (or is also trans) and that takes my insurance, and that i jive with i guess. the whole idea of it is just, very demotivating! anyway, my brain is not doin great. i need therapy and i know it, i need adhd meds again and i know it, i need to leave my house and i know it. but goddddd i have zero motivation to do any of it other than knowing i "need" to do it.
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Gnossiennes posted:but goddddd i have zero motivation to do any of it other than knowing i "need" to do it. thats normal, isnt it? oscillating between "head empty, forgot the thing" and "i need to do an overwhelming number of things and that's impossible right now" is what adulthood feels like afaict
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