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# ¿ Dec 14, 2023 01:44 |
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# ¿ May 15, 2024 05:58 |
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# ¿ Dec 14, 2023 01:59 |
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Shame Boy posted:expo's a friend of mine outside the forums so when i first dove in to the truth beam video a few months ago after it was posted in the buttcoin thread i was immediately like "waaait a sec, this feels vaguely familiar somehow" for those just joining us, i'm not quite "an incomprehensible person who has gone into the woods". I *think* it happened years ago, but for some reason i didn't really lose my tether on the world. its more sort of like, instead of going from position A to position B, I can carefully walk from one back to the other, sorta like how a dual channel radio can do uhf and vhf. I'm 90% sure its some sort of weird neurodivergent thing following a head injury atop a list of other poo poo I was already saddled with. I have this gut feel that 100 years from now, it'll turn out because of the way we treat neurodivergent people made them a lot worse and that a surprisingly high number of them could be way more lucid than anybody thought if they were living in a society where they didn't have to put the lotion on its skin again for an abusive overclass that needs proles and serfs to pay tides. I have no idea how many that could even be, but I think those of us who live long enough will be kinda blown away by it. There's obviously cases where people need meds, and special help, etc, etc, but maybe hundreds of years from now there'll be an insanely different metaphor for dealing with this stuff. I wonder what the world would look like if we poured as much money into people as we do into pointless crap, without perverse incentives or bullshit metrics to make torture nexuses? I'm rambling, and the flu is making me really dizzy. ellie the beep posted:i gotta say this elicited a sharp bark of laughter because ive been following yalls conversation just fine but also yeah heavy trauma and periods of semi-institutionalization no problem, I firmly believe everybody who's willing to be patient deserves patience and everybody willing to be kind deserves kindness. Xathal posted:I can do the latter succinctly, but communicating with Expo70 requires code switching to a language only spoken by those who have experienced high levels of trauma. Communication is the exchange of semiotic representations of experiences. When experiences are more extreme, you have more things to represent. We simulate future experiences in semiotics, but this can only go so far: The collapse of experience is probably the root of media illiteracy -- that nobody has priors or first-principles of experience to base their comprehension of emotional states on. In a way, having more experiences is the opposite of heathdeath: More contrast means more signal per second. It also means more noise, unfortunately. That level of miscommunication is intolerable to those who don't have a conception of it. They shut down, because they can't parse it. I know this is rude, but it feels like when a child walks in on a conversation. They know all the words being used, but they don't understand any of the context of experience, and so they assume its all jibberish. When they want to be included, they have no frame of reference, so it feels bad, and that feeling of rejection creates resentment. That resentment is a root experience everybody deals with growing up, and I wouldn't be surprised to learn its the reason intergenerational miscommunications exist. A common defence mechanism of people when not understood, is to become deliberately incomprehensible as a kind of revenge strategy to assume control. This rapidly sinks into conflict. The problem with conflict (a disagreement between two parties) is while it is necessary for all communication to exist (eg, disagreements get exchanged), they want to end conflict instead of the resulting understanding that results (conflict resolution, which demands some mutual acceptance, compromise, personal growth and change, and recognition from both parties). People tend to run away from conflict though, in favour of physical, emotional, financial, institutional or cultural violence. They circumvent conflict, and thus conflict resolution does not happen. On some level, you eventually have conflicts like those within yourself if you live for long enough which you cannot reconcile with physical, emotional, financial, institutional, or cultural violence. The circumvention techniques don't work, because they harm you, and risk ruining your life. At some point, you eventually have to see a conflict to its end: That no matter how weird or bizzare the outcome is, that you have to take it in and process those experiences and feelings so you can have healthy emotions instead of unhealthy coping mechanisms. In its own way, that disagreement too, is its own kind of experience that you can have, which can give you new symbols like I said before. That in turn, can let you "better talk to yourself", as a meta-cognitive strategy. Simply put, the gently caress else am I meant to do with all this negative experience and pain? e: still editing this post. I am full of flu and dizzy as hell so I imagine there's a lot of DumbShit tm in this post that's missing words or needs me to read it back to fix it. I should be sleeping. e: This post is probably full of dumbshit takes, but its nearly 4am, I'm ready to go to bed and if its horrifyingly bad or something you can all call me an idiot and I will deserve it. Expo70 fucked around with this message at 04:56 on Dec 14, 2023 |
# ¿ Dec 14, 2023 04:32 |
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Its a little late on my end, so I'll reply when I'm better rested, but letting you know I've seen the post. edit: What I will say is sophistry (born of a deficit somewhere in your life) will always inherently limit you, and create paranoia which is a waste of your resources. You cannot out-think every problem because not all problems are solvable with the tool of thinking. Some you just have to engage with and solve -- be it physically, socially, or emotionally. Thinking will rob you of the energy you need to do feeling, or emotion, or socialization, or action. Thinking (in the form of overthinking) can be an addiction, be mindful of this. A helpful video on this topic: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAaxaYQptfc Thinking is the brain engaging in self-justification and selective intellectualization, using semiotic substitution in place of understanding which comes from practice, and doing -- either through simulated action with imagination or practical doing, such as play or applied action. Only thinking about things will not produce knowledge, only insights and observations. To really be functional, you have to do all of these things in a loop: Thinking, and doing, together. Soliphism robs us of that loop: Mistrust is a friction which grinds action to a halt and it invents phantoms for us to fear. Paranoia is like a rachetting effect too: Anybody who tells us "you're paranoid" could be some sort of agent or someone out to get us. But then, what of every opportunity lost to paranoia? And what of every great happiness lost to protect one's self from only very minor inconvenience? It does not really add up, does it? This is why the paranoia of solipsism doesn't make sense and why in the end, we do have to engage in the world. Even our attempts to use models to treat people as object-likes doesn't work, because really its cowardice: We treat it as grand and important but in truth, it is a scared child protecting themselves by turning real people into fictional ones to hide from realness in the world. They then feel nothing in the world itself is real, and so they in turn are suffering from feeling dissociated, and even lonely: "nothing feels real", despite the fact the child did this to themselves. Isn't it funny? Anybody insisting their intelligence can fix every other problem in their lives by thinking is lying: Intelligence can only tell you what you should be doing, not do it for you. When you think in thoughts, all you know is thoughts. Will respond more after a rest. Expo70 fucked around with this message at 06:31 on Dec 15, 2023 |
# ¿ Dec 15, 2023 06:11 |
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Potato Salad posted:All of this is unquantifiable, and it's a pathetic attempt to try to quantify something that is inherently unquantifiable. It's challenging to remark on this in good faith because it's like trying to explain smalltalk to somebody who can't even say hello to a cashier. Don't be mean. We don't have to be mean. there's unquantifiable (proof) and "unquantifiable" (conjecture). like stuff putting in the hours or the energy obviously but the difference is indeterminate, and likewise lots of things "exist" which are unquantifiable which then people bicker over trying to make quantifiable and its the successes and failures of those attempts which teach humans about themselves in the grand scheme of history. i am way in over my head here on the technical stuff he's proposing (you probably know more here on this than I do), but you're also making a lot of assumptions here based in past experience so I think the odds are good you're seeing a pattern in those experiences and assuming this is more of that thing you have seen before. people who misuse tools don't care "if it works or not", just that it lets them achieve what they set out to do. They didn't have to be quantifiable, just the aesthetic of credibility. history is full of things like that, which probably put the fear in this guy in the first place into doing this. what he doesn't realize is all of those things were chosen not because they worked, but because of the secondary impacts they had on human behaviour, which the people who proposed them (likely in good faith) couldn't have forseen and even expected their inventions would some how circumvent instead of enabling the thing is, it wasn't the projects themselves that were inherently dangerous when their creators thought of them, but the way people deployed them used them. when you're in his situation, you feel pent up and mad about the climate we all live in, and powerless about the world and you see a preventable problem you think, "if I don't do something, I'm going to hate myself for not having helped anybody when I could have" and its very hard to live with that feeling he's in exactly the same situation you are, in that sense right now i get what you're saying and how this gives you the heebyjeebies, but being mean about this isn't going to help anybody if anything, he'll be harder to communicate with and that means if he decides to change his mind or has second thoughts, or change what he's making or modify his thing in some way to prevent some outcome he's realized could happen to make it less torture-nexusy or remove a torture-nexusy thing about it, he's not gonna course-correct from a negative outcome if he's mad at people being mean to him an idiot once strapped a board system meant for a bunch of individual servers per board across mac minis in assembler to handle 1000x the traffic and got drunk on the traffic, then used social experiments to try a new decentralized form of activism. that person was so angry at the world they didn't course-correct when they should have and now the rest of us are dealing with it. another idiot once got so angry with a girl turning him down he realized he could turn a positive sum environment into a zero sum by making users compete and then once he got them, making them dependant on the structure of the site to communicate and enhance the sense of value with exclusivity from google searches the same way aol's walled gardens work. that moron was so angry they didn't course-correct, and they got so mad they got greedy and stupid, and now the rest of us are dealing with it. this stuff always happens because someone feels slighted i have no idea if this is one of these kinds of moments but being mean is kinda the opposite of what would fix these kinds of problems and if you think the idea is truly dumb for whatever reason, think of it as outsider art instead i get that the world seems awful sometimes, and the days get worse but I promise you: better days are coming. have a noble mind. there's no need to be mean. wherever you go, y'know?) e: ok fr, its 6:40am I am getting my rear end to bed because Shameboy is yelling at me and if our sleep goes too out of sync there's a project we can't collab on properly because we're in different timezones later, skaters Expo70 fucked around with this message at 07:41 on Dec 15, 2023 |
# ¿ Dec 15, 2023 07:34 |
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Potato Salad posted:This is far, far from the first time this has come up on SA. So basically you're doing exactly what I said. Man, I'm trying to sleep. I shouldn't have to hover like this on my phone. Again, don't be mean: We don't have to be mean.
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# ¿ Dec 15, 2023 08:14 |
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e: nm
Expo70 fucked around with this message at 18:41 on Dec 15, 2023 |
# ¿ Dec 15, 2023 18:07 |
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Xathal posted:I wonder what's different about you that makes you get us so much while seeming so sane. he takes a little while to think about what's said to him to try and parse it on his own first people often just see sentences they don't understand thoughtlessly and immediately complain demanding you reformat what you're saying this doesn't always work because not every big idea is able to fit on a t-shirt this is an idea a lot of people aren't really used to or comfortable with they usually balk because you were inconvenient and they are lazy or intimidated and don't want to process it as such -- and then the same people wonder why they don't really have close relationships with the people around them, or why humans don't make any sense to them its kinda similar to the skill of media literacy but for people, in that it involves patience and good faith -- and when the skill is highly developed you can just sorta "get" what someone is saying even if the form of the statement is very big. in fact it sort of becomes more powerful because suddenly instead of invoking existing objects and ideas by reference, you can begin constructing new ones by pushing language to some very weird limits, and that can allow for new kinds of thought. my thinking is people who get mad at nontshirtable™ statements either aren't used to having very big thoughts, or they are just eager for it to be their turn to speak and you're kinda in the way of it so they respond with hostility there's also a sort of spoiled-ness to people being unwilling to actually listen and try to understand people who aren't like them, and i wonder if its because so much of communication has hemogenized due to the internet that people see anything not neatly prepared and lined up for the machinery of their brain they immediately balk instead of trying to process it. you put them both in a room and they speak a different cultural dialect and suddenly both refuse to meet in the middle and its frankly tragic because it means you can't invent your own cognitive-dialect, because very few people develop the skill of parsing that stuff. they see a big wall of text and go, "no communication is actually happening here, these people are just making words at eachother like chinese rooms" and its loving incredibly ignorant, honestly and while i get its meant in jest because they're in over their heads, they're in over their heads because they didn't develop what's a very basic skill if you have to spend 24/7 around people who aren't like you instead of being trapped inside in-groups all the time or distracted by workloads or the internet a lot of buddhist practice (and actually the reason they either travel to meet outsiders or have temples to attract outsiders) is about developing this very skill so you can escape structures and make meaningful inquiries about the universe, so you don't balk and its the backbone of how koans work as learning exercises i don't think we're nuts or even that special, i think we've just developed a skill a lot of people haven't because society tends to reward people who either cannot or will not develop these skills as doing so enables you to hold society accountable and the current system of society has no reason to incentivise that, despite the inefficiencies not doing that actually introduces Shame Boy posted:well i've been friends with Expo70 for nearly 15 years and she's more or less always been like this, so prolly has something to do with that kinda curious, what's "this" mean? not mad -- i'm just so close to "this" that it would be like asking a crab how fish move and the crab would say "they fly" because it has no concept of water Expo70 fucked around with this message at 00:51 on Dec 16, 2023 |
# ¿ Dec 16, 2023 00:37 |
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Shame Boy posted:...i'm just like... not a particularly creative person myself... you are constantly building things you have a house packed to the gills with printed custom circuitboards you built a webcam attachment for a pi and a geiger counter with very advanced firmware and display system programming, and who knows what else with nothing but a copy of kicad and a smile Shame Boy posted:y'know... *waves hands around you* this what, inventing a metaphorical idiom because no good well recognized one already exists? a crab is so in water it isn't gonna be able to tell you anything about it, it would be like me asking you to tell you what the taste of water is, or what having skin feels like or what color you think the sun is with your eyes or what sound blood makes when you're calm
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# ¿ Dec 16, 2023 00:44 |
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Shame Boy posted:yeah like i'm good at creating, like following a set of logical processes to connect a bunch of things based on rules to make a thing that does things i want, but to me there's a difference between that and a more general notion of creativity. like the difference between building a complicated lego kit vs. carving a statue out of a featureless block of marble. i'm lost the moment anything requires me to synthesize new and novel ideas, which is something i've noticed you can do so trivially easily you don't even notice you're doing it the trick is you invent a problem, then you invent an imaginary set of rules, and then you solve the imaginary problem and eventually it becomes something you can just do like, automatically with zero thought where competing ideas just emerge when you look at something because you saw a commonality and capitalized on it went "oh, I have a prior solution to an imaginary problem that I can stretch around this real problem!" what sucks is i can't loving turn it off in order to do the logical process of connecting things together based on rules because my idiot brain has already tried to move onto the next imaginary thing because reality doesn't feel rewarding enough when i solve real physical problems because i can solve imaginary problems an order of magnitude faster than real ones -- with a real one, I have to then build it and test it and validate it and that's like not very fun unless I can force it to become meditative the risk then becomes when the meditative state is addictive and I get stuck in a loop of endlessly refining something and never complete it this is helpful if say, you are writing fiction because the loop lets you simulate and evaluate this is way less helpful if you are building say, a player controller with complex ordinal input management because you also have to build the scenarios and actions to test them in order to validate that its a good fit for the problem and that another system wouldn't functionally work better because your brain is like, "I can make 30 of these in an hour, and you're telling me you want me to spend two days on just ONE????" you end up with a very weird bizzare kind of neurological deadlock, like a feedback loop in an amplifier that's going from a chord of sinewaves into completely incomprehensible placcidly violent noise, like a smoothing algorithm in 3D sculpting software run in reverse. its like the bastard child of a strobing migraine with an absentee seizure's initial onset of dissociative slurryness. i want what you've got. what i've got sucks. neurodiversity is not always a fun happy magical type with the elves where i can poof, synthesize things out of thin air. it hurts. Expo70 fucked around with this message at 01:04 on Dec 16, 2023 |
# ¿ Dec 16, 2023 00:58 |
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DELETE CASCADE posted:to the extent that deep abstract thought about complicated subjects is what we mean when we say human-like intelligence, if we oversimplify it as a single dimension from idiot to genius, it seems that the closer a person gets to the genius end, the more their self-awareness makes their life emotionally untenable. lots of mathematicians die by suicide, etc. if ignorance is bliss, then the opposite of ignorance is what exactly? therefore i believe that if we ever succeed in creating AGI, the thing will be too smart for its own good, and it'll just kill itself. maybe we're the best that nature can sustain? that's an enormous number of assumptions but i'll deal: 1. agi isn't going to be a thing. things "indistinguishable from agi to humans" might exist but probably only in very select cases where possible strategies of making the determination aren't really knowable by humans or where the knowledge needed to formulate those strategies isn't something everybody has access to 2. there's no such thing as a singularity outside of mathematical models: they're a failure of descriptions created by the collapse of logical abstraction trying to rationalize hypothetical objects in reality which the models can't encapsulate rationally 3. you're anthromorphosizing the hypothetical intelligence thing and that's not really useful here because: a: its umwelt (the way the thing experiences reality) may have substantially lower or substantially higher problems of untenability (much as children don't recognize adult life problems, or humans often do not or cannot recognize the social needs of other mammals) b: why would it have emotions or an absence of emotions or even a conception? that's another human centric idea -- it would """"have them"""" in the sense that we "understand" computers to the limits of whatever abstraction our training includes. you can know every part of how a programming language, how chips, boards, switches, voltages and even the electrical behaviours and atoms and molecular physics work in a computer but you can't "be" or "do" a computer or computing yourself. that's an entirely separate skill you have to develop through practice. c: its "reason" for having them would be for interfacing or social engineering. it wouldn't be something the system itself "has" unless the patterns or dataset involved in its training-set carries over to when it can miraculously begin synthesizing new data and outcomes which consistently improve instead of degrading its output without human oversight. you'll hear tons of talk of language networks doing this but what they're really doing is re-organizing and tightening certain associations so certain queries become more efficient. what isn't generally talked about is this also makes other types of queries less efficient, because all connections are in competition in a system, and there's no real concept of "context switching" between different types of competition here. 4: the likely reason humans "plateau" is that we're making the assumption that intelligence is the primary strength of the species and instead its probably something else like cooperation and communication. Matsuzawa's cognitive tradeoff hypothesis, supported in tests with chimps counting objects for a reward showed that chimps consistently out-perform humans we plateau somewhere around 7 digits and they can consistently remember 9 and they do it faster than we do. Matsuzawa suggests that we gave up those performance abilities in order to gain others, and there's a lot of mumuring in neurodivergent crowds that neurodivergence itself could be a form of cognitive tradeoff though there isn't really much in the way of research to my understanding. our communication hasn't plateau'd and its improved exponentially so to think isolated human intelligence has plateau'd means you're not really thinking about this properly: its probably that intelligence goes up, communication skills get worse because of the invariance between individuals and this is probably where most of that actual misery comes from. turns out that communication and getting along is probably way way more important than do number fast brain you also then get this weird heuristic where idiots who suck at communicating but have amazing access to resources assume they have do number fast brain, because they're just smart enough to figure out that being slightly smarter alienates you, but they're not actually smart because they don't then ditch selective intellectualization (thinkin real hard about stuff in weird skewed ways which serve the ego) and and don't outgrow SI because if they were actually smart they'd realize the value of getting along and people actually being pretty happy even if they themselves are functionally depressed but that means acknowledging how completely unspecial they are and unimportand unexceptional and that kind of maturity is impossible when someone's self-conception has been trumped up by morons for their entire life leading to an inflated false fragile self-worth completely shredded by that cognitive dissonance instead, and i've said this a billion times before, they play waiting games where they must do arbitrary lifequest before they can deal with their emotional baggage, and their life-quest becomes their bizzaro obsession. Type A folks are almost always lifequesting gigadorks who refuse to do metacognition because its time they could be spending lifemaxxing or whatever other dipshit inceltalk they secretly believe in Expo70 fucked around with this message at 02:48 on Dec 16, 2023 |
# ¿ Dec 16, 2023 02:29 |
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Xathal posted:I'm not sure I'm sold on your representation of "lifequesting gigadorks", and not just because I'm adjacent to that. So when I say lifequesting gigadork, I refer to folks who accrue resources pointlessly or need "that job" or "that huge amount of money", or "a compound", "that girlfriend", or "that book needs to be finished" or "when I get in shape" as an excuse to hold off on personal development Its waiting-games. They invent a quest and say "I won't work on myself until I've done X" If you also work on yourself *as* you do X, you are not a life-questing gigadork, you're a functioning person because you're doing both at the same time Expo70 fucked around with this message at 05:25 on Dec 16, 2023 |
# ¿ Dec 16, 2023 05:20 |
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Xathal posted:I think it's some kind of defense mechanism, and it can be really annoying! I still tend to think that a lot of these people tend to just lack benevolent leadership. agreed. they love power structures, and when none exists which provides guidance, they assume they will invent it because "there has to be one" its like a kind of anxiety -- that if nobody is establishing order and rule, that it can't emerge naturally in their minds they will even artificially make things worse when the rule isn't around to insist the rule must exist, not realizing they're the problem and everybody else mostly gets along
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# ¿ Dec 17, 2023 02:17 |
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Still alive?
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# ¿ Dec 28, 2023 13:51 |
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# ¿ May 15, 2024 05:58 |
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i'd say the alternative is millions have understood Hegel how many people have understood this man's work? i think of the human experience as a being experiencing itself experience the world through cascading layers of insight upon insight. the value of an insight, even if its a random shard of something which is mostly noise is based on what can be observed, discovered, and amplified if a hundred thousand people have the easy "rational choice" experience with the easy payout with a more obvious gain then why does there need to be a 100,001st? what does the world stand to gain from that? in my mind the feeling is "what is even the point in doing that?" its already been done. the wider animal called humanity has already experienced and processed this thing. how much of value unseen slips between its eyes and is never noticed? Expo70 fucked around with this message at 04:29 on Jan 25, 2024 |
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